allow x

I put alot of my cranky behaivour down to boredom and it's ironic because I was never one to get bored. Turning up the drama, just to shake things a little. It hasn't much to do with activity or any kind of recreation, it has to do with systems, constructs, man-made structures of thought and speech.
My personality may be complex but what about x?
There are always people ready to set me off balance and I still let them sometimes. I'll allow anyone to do anything because it don't bother me, I hope for this to be.

Much goodness to know

Do not be afraid, dear one, you shall realise all that you truly desire.
We can see that your deepest desires are of the highest alignment and so they will come to be.

You can be sure that you will receive everything you need in due time, that means; when you are ready to enjoy it and receive it best.

Choice is a rather debatable given to you at this time because you believe in the law of attraction that is coming at you now from all outlets and this makes it difficult for you when you don't receive that what you believe you should have attracted.

There is another thing that seems rather questionable to you also, that of your soul- purpose here on earth and how that coincides with your current evolution or transition. For example you can have trust in helping others by residing in their frequency but feel like that is constricting to you.

So you wonder if you have any real choice in any matter as you are drawn to, and conscious of; multiple realities and frequencies at this time.

Well we say this: 
there is much you are still not conscious of, and you cannot always see the bigger picture when you get caught up in so called negative emotions, there are illusions present in your reality, not just in your mind or experience but in the outer world too.

We see that illusions are being seen for what they are now and that you are having to accomodate and re-evaluate. This is all part of the human experience for you and residing in any frequency should be valuable for your growth, seen from a broader learning experience perspective.

All is in divine and perfect order, we always repeat this because we know these words have a grounding, calming dimension to them.

There is also the experience of time which you are learning about.

There is no haste, there is no waste.

Trust and find that inner space again, where there is calm and a peaceful knowing. That is most important as you live your life and in your living is your soul purpose, in the struggle is the helping others, you are always helping yourself aswell as others just living your life.

There should be some transcendance now at all times, there is a filtering through of your soul and the most beautiful light at all times now in all of your experiences, there is illumination even though you pretend not to see it or are just not aware of it as yet.

You are becoming ever more aware, believe it or not, all humans are, so this is the expansion of consciousness and you are playing an important part in raising vibrations everywhere you go.

The intensity you sometimes feel inside or feel you are lacking outside is the gift, propelling you forward as you wish.

Be happy to know youself, for there is much goodness to know.

Sharon Jones & The Dap Kings - How Long

this is what you shall do

by Walt Whitman (from the preface to Leaves of Grass, 1885).

"This is what you shall do;
Love the earth and sun and the animals,
despise riches, give alms to every one that asks,
stand up for the stupid and crazy,
devote your income and labor to others,
hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people,
take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men,
go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families,
read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life,
re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book,
dismiss whatever insults your own soul,
and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body."

addiction inbox on independence day

psychic

Patience with sexual expression, no haste with being on the recieving end of love. No worries about self-actualization knowing that there is no such thing as wasted time.
The outward results (inner results too) are no definitive precursor of what will be, merely a signpost at a crossroads.
Waiting quietly for more goodness to unfold, yes there is a wave coming, yes this is the valley, yes this is the silence before the storm. No, there is nothing to fear.
Psychic attacks are less morbid, they go by faster and lack any real threat to long-term peace of mind. A little suicide obsession that tries to take back lost ground. Be calm, be still, but be alert.
relaxation-valley

(n)ever finished

a life that is more detached from the general hive vibe

while writing creatively i am always channeling to some degree

I am still rather at a loss as to what to make of this compulsive, destructive behaviour, i am also aware of experience being important and desire being rife with illusion.

I feel somewhat slutty and dirty now after some encounters.

I feel i am abusing my body, mind and sanctity by this behaviour. I am ashamed partially but also rather intrigued. Feel for drama.

I pray that my body can be clean of all of this lust-filled nature but experience teaches us that it is a nature; an energy. I pray to be more balanced and respectful,

I also am trying to not be judgmental, so i was horny, well it is quite an experience to have no boundaries for awhile.

Now no more obsessions or fixations, healing of abuse, shedding of darker matter and health, healthy body.

It's all a matter of perception and where to draw the line, well i know now and thanks for the pleasure!

Mostly it seems futile but feels right, saying a prayer, asking for guidance or trying to numb myself out, the tides coming in, gotta move aside for the water.

ha those years in amsterdam, bittersweet as always i believe

more distinguishable way

The energy of your guides will become familiar to you
always making contact, you will begin to feel more with your body,
you will become even more sensitive to- and aware of  -
subtle changes in energy  (response)
as the process of enlightenment or transition unfolds

crony institutions

Throughout recorded history, when their survival is threatened, governments always turn against their own people. In such an environment, it pays to decrease reliance on government and its crony institutions, and to favor reliance on oneself and one's communities. S.G

from a distance

It's more like an expression now
what i feel for you

I just want to drink and smoke
it's like a high

every day in the morning again for you

ever higher
I go

to give thanks for you

i'm a rebel
soul rebel

Every hour seems like a day
And every day is like a year
And every week is an eternity
Well I get lonely baby when you're not here

Bob Marley - Wisdom

atlantean exotic weaponry

Humanity must decide whether it will forsake exotic and massively destructive weapons, or possibly suffer the same fate as a previous unredeemable race, the Atlanteans, whose civilization required destruction because they refused to give up their exotic weapons and follow the more enlightened path of tolerance of oneself and others, meditation, group consciousness, and love.

illusion of leadership 2

According to Cosmic Law, leadership should be based on vibrations (the highest) and not on birthright, looks, political connections, money, etc.

the illusion of leadership

end of an era 2

The era of life dominated by nation states will pass. Wisdom dictates that people prepare for this by learning to rely on themselves and by establishing, recognizing, and nurturing the communities, both local and widely dispersed, that are crucial to their lives.

End of an Era

some random considerations

So apparently the patriarchy is starting to crumble, this is leaving alot of men unsure of where they stand, many are experiencing identity issues, some are desperately clinging on to the old paradigm where men had most of the power, now both men and women will have to reconsider their positions. Some structures are crumbling, those that are not working for the greater good will self-destruct. The nature of duality is finally reaching maximum transparency, lots of dark stuff is out in the open now and more will follow. It can at times be quite overwhelming and confusing when the pressure of change is on.
All this is happening because of an increase in light, there are light frequencies that are lifting the earth and all of it's inhabitants into a higher state of being and quite naturally there must be a falling away of that denser, heavier matter.

triple digit numerology

A quick check in Drunvalo Melchizedek’s book, “Serpent of Light, Beyond 2012″ told me the answer. If you are not familiar with this book, in it Drunvalo breaks down the meaning of triple digit numbers in our lives:

111 – energy flow: something is flowing to you: money, water, sex, etc…,
222 – new cycle: something new is beginning, wait on next triple # for guidance,
333 – decisions: a fork in the road where your decisions will lead to a 666 which repeat past lessons or to the 999 which means completion and lesson learned,
444 – mystery school: life lessons, real lessons, study, learning about Reality
555 – unity: highest number Christ Consciousness, when someone has attained unity
666 – can represent pure evil, watch out for physical events and exercise caution
777 – mystery school: practicing all you have learned
888 – completion of a lesson
999 – completion of a cycle of lessons or events, spiritual mastery
000 – meaningless

navajo

october prober

the weed plants are growing
things are moving back into acceptance
instead of complete denial and once again we are
on our way
moving out
there is still a ton of denial because things can look
pretty ugly
sure
compassion now too
quiet in the background
still
some kind of understanding is here
less judgement involved because we can expect it
we can expect outbursts
rage
time to be resiliant while trying to chill
get some rest now because it's going to be a rocky road
humans
time to pay up
no one should feel like an alien anymore
suicide is only one of the many
rides
just carry on because soon this little blink will be over
and please
try to stay sober