Brow of calm

answer2

2012-01-15T23:28:00.003+01:00

It seems that once again your patience has run out and your ego wants results, although ego is a rather overused and almost negative word, it fits well in this context. All is in divine and perfect order, all things are certainly in their right place including your current personal situation, however bleak at times it may seem. If you really look beyond the frustrated emotions you will find that everything is indeed rather fine and as you would like it. There are many good things lined up for you but the timing is best left to trust.

answer1

2012-01-15T22:14:00.003+01:00

You are reluctant because you have become accustomed to a routine or comfort zone. Sometimes you are not willing to open yourself up to situations or to people that maybe do not resonate closely with you. Assuming that it could get uncomfortable because of the strangeness. Certainly you are not wanting too much contact with people that reside in 'lower' vibrations. You say: I am too different, I am too complex, I am too psychic. Then you look at your past experiences and want to give up, claiming thus that the future is going to be the same as the past. Also, mary jane, mary fuckin' jane.

karnak

2012-01-15T21:58:00.000+01:00

when it becomes
dark
turn my body
upward
then may I feel
again
your light

quite remarkable how integrated

2012-01-08T19:23:00.000+01:00

18-7-2011

wherever you go people will be enamoured by your charm, this will not diminish due to you living a more solitary life or a life that is more detached from the general hive vibe.

unsure

2012-01-08T19:17:00.002+01:00

Contemplating the current residence.
Looking forward to future way of being.
Confident that there is a right time for all things to be.
Restless.

Here is where I really space out. Honouring the seperation that doesn't even exist, that is unsure of itself if it does and yet it somehow always is observed as such.

Seperation from most humans at this time.

Wondering if there is someone that knows what it's like to see this way. Unplugged from that hive mind, hence seperation, some kind of developed isolation, aware of a force pushing, cracks appear.

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2012-01-07T20:05:00.000+01:00

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path of detachment

2012-01-02T22:11:00.000+01:00

(Beware: own your personal power, it is a gift. You fall behind when you allow comparisons to make you blind. If you would walk on the path of detachment, separate yourself from this then also.)
(How can you compare yourself to those who are successful in attachment, you have failed too many times in your attempts to return to that game.)

all that is yet to be

2012-01-02T21:59:00.003+01:00

I wish for you to imagine all that is yet to be, I am waiting for the time that you will celebrate this journey with me. Ever moving, ever removing, ever learning and turning, always silent but ready to flood you with light, and fill you with healing.

I am the brow of calm.

atlantis the replay

2011-12-29T20:26:00.002+01:00

You all chose to be here in this transformational age to see that you do NOT replay Atlantis and destroy yourselves and your world this time around. - Blueprint for Change

bashar.org

2011-12-06T20:30:00.004+01:00

very content just by the whole thing

2011-12-02T23:27:00.003+01:00

Seeing the divine in every experience.
Understanding of a wide variety of life.
Knowing truth, the spiritual laws, respect.
Discovering and integrating of soul or omnipresence.
Patience and trust on the spiritual path.
Realizing how good you are.
Quite delightful, i'm sure.
Feeling the depth of this existance.
Christ consciousness, love thy neighbour.
Expression of self without judgment.
Mastery of energy managment.
Alignment of chakra systems.
Bringing flow of higher light to earth.
Through my healthy radiant body.
Sharing with, allowing others to rest.
Collecting beautiful things.
Teaching balanced message for creation.
Peaceful gathering for relaxation and quiet bliss.
Thankful and blessed with plant and animal life.
Harvest thy abundant earth, we love.
Very content just by the whole thing.
Life.

Grimy Styles - Sound Czech

2011-11-27T22:33:00.000+01:00

december energy

2011-11-27T22:25:00.004+01:00

this month you can expect a number of things.

To begin with we will discuss the sensations you will begin to have, mostly energy feelings in and around your chakra's, mostly your crown, you know these but they will be stronger and more distinct.
Then there is the changing of relationships and trust.
But also the continuing of your current flow with calm and bliss filled moments of lasting joy.

So the sensations will be energy codes that contain information, this knowledge goes down to the level of cells, light codes that activate a memory in you of many generations and of the future too, the body will change and evolve using these blasts and waves of light coming in from the sun and central sun. Also contained in these codes is psychic information access to your soul, actually it is more like a reintegration, this will allow you to be stronger and more in-tune with everything around you, quite the lightworker if you do not get destracted by that glamour. You will certainly see more of who you are in a beautiful way.

Then this month will see the disintegration of some relationships, the falling apart or break-up, temporary or otherwise of relationships all around you, this is all ok. Not only love-relationships, also friends, family, any kind of relationship. Do not be concerned only honest and accepting, not judgmental because that is detrimental.

There will be more alignment, even closer, with the soul choices of individuals that have common values and goals, and expansion of consciousness, so things should really pick up even more speed regarding karmic outcomes, do not think too much of it because it is already fairly normal in your world.

With christmas approaching there will be much capacity this month for forgiveness, empathy and compassion regarding those around you who have been in turmoil or confusion regarding the recent shifts personal and global. Also learning of trust in another.

When families come together they will be able to appreciate each other much more now because the veil is thinning and the discomfort caused by current systems is apparent. This will allow for recognition of that positive vibration, human love and heart space, everyone has the chance to connect with and recognize this inside of them this month and how they relate to others.
The chance will be there.

For you lightworker, you can be sure that connecting to your inner child and exploration of your gifts will be rewarding. A reintegration of soul, healing, and connecting more with your guides too. You will be learning more about your purpose and those gifts that you have.
Enjoy the temporary chill spaces and the winter outward death, shiva, but inner rest.

cover one eye?

2011-11-27T21:21:00.003+01:00

different people tell me that it's fine
as long as it feels good

society tells me otherwise

marilyn monroe
a scary version
a sneaky di-version
cover one eye

choice is made by me
so any fame or fortune
offered

i

EGYPT october

2011-11-27T20:25:00.002+01:00

2011-11-27T20:15:00.003+01:00

EGYPT october 2011

2011-11-27T20:05:00.001+01:00

2011-11-16T22:28:00.000+01:00

“There is magic in names and the mightiest among these words of magic is Atlantis…it is as if this vision of a lost culture touched the most hidden thoughts of our soul.”

H.G. Wells

2011-11-11T01:29:00.000+01:00

In this age of truth, people will increasingly see government claims and promises, their debts, and their currencies as lies.

2011-11-07T20:28:00.000+01:00

It is wise to refuse the Dark Forces' pervasive attempts to dumb-down the population, and to raise one's discernment to ever-higher levels via study, questioning, meditation, and logic.

create more abundance

2011-10-24T23:09:00.002+02:00

You can learn to refine your thoughts and actions to fit what you imagine is most fitting and right for you.

2011-10-12T00:09:00.001+02:00

10

2011-10-10T22:36:00.003+02:00

According to Numerology, 10 represents completions, closure, fulfillment, rebirth, and the return to Unity.
transitions

edge of the wave

2011-10-10T17:33:00.000+02:00

One thing we have already told many of you is that the threshold that you call 2012 is simply the leading edge of the collective consciousness crossing critical mass threshold. The idea being that on the other side of that particular moment in time there will be more positive momentum on the planet than negative. What you do with that is still up to you. But it will be available to you because the collective consciousness on the planet, like the leading edge of a wave, will be such that you can dip into that more easily, more effortlessly.

Bashar

not expected to live up to mine

2011-10-09T20:14:00.007+02:00

First you have to have expectations but projecting all kinds of desire onto strangers is asking for strange reactions. What did you expect? No one has to live up to your expectations ever, or as long as you demand it.

Nothing is expected from you and yet so much.

So after you visualized all kinds of scenario's and when then the right candidate seemingly came along; it is not right to just jump them, they are not your prey.
Realising that when treated with respect some of the people will allow you to see them and you can hold your peace with what their actions imply.

They will try to communicate to you, that you are no longer residing full-time with them.

Rushing in with desperation and I, they just look at me with empty eyes, that don't really see. I feel frustration, impatience, not much tolerence at all. Not worth it.
But when you see where you are, fine really, still not that into it, still rather bored, waiting, I am waiting, there is no haste, there is no waste. Not much longer now and then the sky will clear and it will just be you and me.

nice and quiet

2011-09-25T10:10:00.004+02:00

This post should be a reminder of what I know and of what I should remember forever now: smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol is detrimental to the inner calm.
Since stopping once again; I feel that slow detachment; it seems to have gotten nice and quiet in my body, so much less confusion and more flow, less constriction.
A healthy diet is also helping, avocado and tea, helping to feel the inner physical calm.
Now when confronted with ignorance or the unknown, when feeling automatic comparisons arising; I quickly detach or at least I am conscious of that conditioning now and therefore render the duality powerless.
I am more aware of who I am and so less threatened by that stupid norm of competition and insecurity.
That drama always needing my attention, always claiming that I need to resort to addictions to numb out the pain of being so called different, when being unique is exactly the whole point of it all and the hidden strength at this time, !

allow x

2011-08-28T21:35:00.002+02:00

I put alot of my cranky behaivour down to boredom and it's ironic because I was never one to get bored. Turning up the drama, just to shake things a little. It hasn't much to do with activity or any kind of recreation, it has to do with systems, constructs, man-made structures of thought and speech.
My personality may be complex but what about x?
There are always people ready to set me off balance and I still let them sometimes. I'll allow anyone to do anything because it don't bother me, I hope for this to be.

much goodness to know

2011-08-27T21:09:00.008+02:00

Do not be afraid, dear one, you shall realise all that you truly desire.
We can see that your deepest desires are of the highest alignment and so they will come to be.

You can be sure that you will receive everything you need in due time, that means; when you are ready to enjoy it and receive it best.

Choice is a rather debatable given to you at this time because you believe in the law of attraction that is coming at you now from all outlets and this makes it difficult for you when you don't receive that what you believe you should have attracted.

There is another thing that seems rather questionable to you also, that of your soul- purpose here on earth and how that coincides with your current evolution or transition. For example you can have trust in helping others by residing in their frequency but feel like that is constricting to you.

So you wonder if you have any real choice in any matter as you are drawn to, and conscious of; multiple realities and frequencies at this time.

Well we say this:
there is much you are still not conscious of, and you cannot always see the bigger picture when you get caught up in so called negative emotions, there are illusions present in your reality, not just in your mind or experience but in the outer world too.

We see that illusions are being seen for what they are now and that you are having to accomodate and re-evaluate. This is all part of the human experience for you and residing in any frequency should be valuable for your growth, seen from a broader learning experience perspective.

All is in divine and perfect order, we always repeat this because we know these words have a grounding, calming dimension to them.

There is also the experience of time which you are learning about.

There is no haste, there is no waste.

Trust and find that inner space again, where there is calm and a peaceful knowing. That is most important as you live your life and in your living is your soul purpose, in the struggle is the helping others, you are always helping yourself aswell as others just living your life.

There should be some transcendance now at all times, there is a filtering through of your soul and the most beautiful light at all times now in all of your experiences, there is illumination even though you pretend not to see it or are just not aware of it as yet.

You are becoming ever more aware, believe it or not, all humans are, so this is the expansion of consciousness and you are playing an important part in raising vibrations everywhere you go.

The intensity you sometimes feel inside or feel you are lacking outside is the gift, propelling you forward as you wish.

Be happy to know youself, for there is much goodness to know.

Sharon Jones & The Dap Kings - How Long

2011-08-27T19:43:00.001+02:00

this is what you shall do

2011-08-22T00:15:00.001+02:00

by Walt Whitman (from the preface to Leaves of Grass, 1885).

"This is what you shall do;
Love the earth and sun and the animals,
despise riches, give alms to every one that asks,
stand up for the stupid and crazy,
devote your income and labor to others,
hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people,
take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men,
go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families,
read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life,
re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book,
dismiss whatever insults your own soul,
and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body."

addiction inbox on independence day

psychic

2011-08-21T23:51:00.003+02:00

Patience with sexual expression, no haste with being on the recieving end of love. No worries about self-actualization knowing that there is no such thing as wasted time.
The outward results (inner results too) are no definitive precursor of what will be, merely a signpost at a crossroads.
Waiting quietly for more goodness to unfold, yes there is a wave coming, yes this is the valley, yes this is the silence before the storm. No, there is nothing to fear.
Psychic attacks are less morbid, they go by faster and lack any real threat to long-term peace of mind. A little suicide obsession that tries to take back lost ground. Be calm, be still, but be alert.
relaxation-valley

(n)ever finished

2011-08-21T22:51:00.003+02:00

a life that is more detached from the general hive vibe

while writing creatively i am always channeling to some degree

I am still rather at a loss as to what to make of this compulsive, destructive behaviour, i am also aware of experience being important and desire being rife with illusion.

I feel somewhat slutty and dirty now after some encounters.

I feel i am abusing my body, mind and sanctity by this behaviour. I am ashamed partially but also rather intrigued. Feel for drama.

I pray that my body can be clean of all of this lust-filled nature but experience teaches us that it is a nature; an energy. I pray to be more balanced and respectful,

I also am trying to not be judgmental, so i was horny, well it is quite an experience to have no boundaries for awhile.

Now no more obsessions or fixations, healing of abuse, shedding of darker matter and health, healthy body.

It's all a matter of perception and where to draw the line, well i know now and thanks for the pleasure!

Mostly it seems futile but feels right, saying a prayer, asking for guidance or trying to numb myself out, the tides coming in, gotta move aside for the water.

ha those years in amsterdam, bittersweet as always i believe

more distinguishable way

2011-08-21T22:23:00.001+02:00

The energy of your guides will become familiar to you
always making contact, you will begin to feel more with your body,
you will become even more sensitive to- and aware of -
subtle changes in energy (response)
as the process of enlightenment or transition unfolds

crony institutions

2011-08-21T21:56:00.000+02:00

Throughout recorded history, when their survival is threatened, governments always turn against their own people. In such an environment, it pays to decrease reliance on government and its crony institutions, and to favor reliance on oneself and one's communities. S.G

from a distance

2011-08-21T21:46:00.002+02:00

It's more like an expression now
what i feel for you

I just want to drink and smoke
it's like a high

every day in the morning again for you

ever higher
I go

to give thanks for you

2011-08-14T19:53:00.000+02:00

i'm a rebel
soul rebel

2011-08-14T19:41:00.000+02:00

Every hour seems like a day
And every day is like a year
And every week is an eternity
Well I get lonely baby when you're not here

Bob Marley - Wisdom

2011-08-13T23:31:00.001+02:00

atlantean exotic weaponry

2011-08-13T23:02:00.000+02:00

Humanity must decide whether it will forsake exotic and massively destructive weapons, or possibly suffer the same fate as a previous unredeemable race, the Atlanteans, whose civilization required destruction because they refused to give up their exotic weapons and follow the more enlightened path of tolerance of oneself and others, meditation, group consciousness, and love.

illusion of leadership 2

2011-08-13T22:51:00.000+02:00

According to Cosmic Law, leadership should be based on vibrations (the highest) and not on birthright, looks, political connections, money, etc.

the illusion of leadership

end of an era 2

2011-08-13T22:45:00.002+02:00

The era of life dominated by nation states will pass. Wisdom dictates that people prepare for this by learning to rely on themselves and by establishing, recognizing, and nurturing the communities, both local and widely dispersed, that are crucial to their lives.

End of an Era

some random considerations

2011-08-13T22:15:00.006+02:00

So apparently the patriarchy is starting to crumble, this is leaving alot of men unsure of where they stand, many are experiencing identity issues, some are desperately clinging on to the old paradigm where men had most of the power, now both men and women will have to reconsider their positions. Some structures are crumbling, those that are not working for the greater good will self-destruct. The nature of duality is finally reaching maximum transparency, lots of dark stuff is out in the open now and more will follow. It can at times be quite overwhelming and confusing when the pressure of change is on.
All this is happening because of an increase in light, there are light frequencies that are lifting the earth and all of it's inhabitants into a higher state of being and quite naturally there must be a falling away of that denser, heavier matter.

triple digit numerology

2011-08-13T21:40:00.001+02:00

A quick check in Drunvalo Melchizedek’s book, “Serpent of Light, Beyond 2012″ told me the answer. If you are not familiar with this book, in it Drunvalo breaks down the meaning of triple digit numbers in our lives:

111 – energy flow: something is flowing to you: money, water, sex, etc…,
222 – new cycle: something new is beginning, wait on next triple # for guidance,
333 – decisions: a fork in the road where your decisions will lead to a 666 which repeat past lessons or to the 999 which means completion and lesson learned,
444 – mystery school: life lessons, real lessons, study, learning about Reality
555 – unity: highest number Christ Consciousness, when someone has attained unity
666 – can represent pure evil, watch out for physical events and exercise caution
777 – mystery school: practicing all you have learned
888 – completion of a lesson
999 – completion of a cycle of lessons or events, spiritual mastery
000 – meaningless

navajo

october prober

2011-08-13T21:17:00.007+02:00

the weed plants are growing
things are moving back into acceptance
instead of complete denial and once again we are
on our way
moving out
there is still a ton of denial because things can look
pretty ugly
sure
compassion now too
quiet in the background
still
some kind of understanding is here
less judgement involved because we can expect it
we can expect outbursts
rage
time to be resiliant while trying to chill
get some rest now because it's going to be a rocky road
humans
time to pay up
no one should feel like an alien anymore
suicide is only one of the many
rides
just carry on because soon this little blink will be over
and please
try to stay sober

2011-06-20T12:55:00.000+02:00

change is constant

2011-06-15T20:09:00.001+02:00

Being conscious means living fully in the present moment, knowing that no situation or person will be exactly the same tomorrow. As change does occur, we work to interpret it as a natural part of life and strive to 'flow with it,' as the TaoTe Ching counsels, and not against it. Trying to make things remain the same is useless as well as impossible.

Source: Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss

?

2011-06-13T13:13:00.000+02:00

Every judgement we make is noted. Every attitude we hold is a source of positive or negative power for which we are accountable.

2011-06-13T13:05:00.002+02:00

gifts and strengths are with us always

2011-06-13T13:01:00.001+02:00

I like to see everything as a slowly shifting earth, always moving and changing, slowly re-arranging, everything in it's own perfection whether i percieve it as being good or bad.
There is no haste, there is no waste.

new iNFJ

2011-06-11T21:23:00.000+02:00

You're future-oriented, and direct your insight and inspiration towards understanding yourself and thereby, human nature...your work mirrors your integrity....reflects your inner ideals...solitude and a chance to concentrate thoroughly on what counts most is important to you...http://infj.tribe.net/

2011-06-09T21:59:00.001+02:00

a non-judgemental attitude = increased sentience

2011-05-29T14:30:00.003+02:00

wednesday 13 april

I have started to catch glimpses of the no-time, the way we are existing from day to day regardless of years or numbers or birthdays that may pass.

Also I am becoming more aware of my sensitivity, quite remarkable how integrated.

2011-05-29T14:26:00.003+02:00

true meaning of art

2011-05-29T14:09:00.001+02:00

Beauty opens our senses, and it makes us more psychic. I was saying to someone recently that that is the true meaning of Art, to make beauty, and then to have that beauty really stimulate our senses, so that we then move beyond the reality we’re in, and we can sense our connectedness to other realities. Because, reality is multi-dimensional

Barbara Marchiniak

Illusion of leadership

2011-05-29T14:04:00.000+02:00

The divine plan permits the illusion of leadership until the education of consciousness is complete.

Emmanuel

style of resolution

2011-05-16T17:44:00.000+02:00

The style of resolution of inner conflicts is one of the strongest features of personality.
D.R.H
the mind's i

2011-05-16T17:41:00.000+02:00

If you want the plain truth,
Be not concerned with right or wrong.
The conflict between right and wrong
Is the sickness of the mind.

Seng-Ts'an

This moment this love comes to rest in me, many beings in one being.

2011-05-06T22:43:00.000+02:00

Being is not what it seems, or non-being. The world's existance is not in the world.

2011-04-21T23:21:00.002+02:00

psy

2011-04-20T20:18:00.007+02:00

An expanded model of the human psyche offers the possibility of deeper understanding and assistance for those who need it.

- Christina Grof

2011-04-11T14:57:00.000+02:00

2011-03-23T20:39:00.002+01:00

From deep in the earth comes that consistency of nurturing, something that is ancient and ongoing.

लोवेर्स दंचंग न थे न्घ्त

2010-11-22T18:13:00.005+01:00

Awakened desire, fire kindled,

Burning its way upwards

I want to share this.

Never knew it was available

In shop windows and rear view mirrors

Just, on display and wanting to play

Relax and take your shoes off

Unbutton your shirt

Stop that trembling aura I feel,

There is a soft wind coming

On your chest rising to the open window

There are whispers of delight

Partaking of warmth

Sexual music and healing language

Of bodies in a conversation

Of bathroom condensation

As well

Lovers dancing in the night

darkness conscious

2010-08-18T11:39:00.000+02:00

One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. The latter procedure, however, is disagreeable and therefore not popular. ~ Carl Jung

2010-03-14T19:34:00.000+01:00

the millions en-masse are curiously here

2010-02-08T20:23:00.008+01:00

Reading about the destruction I play back the memories of nature and linger in the shade of the eucalyptus trees. Their roots grip the inner earth and each branch and twig climbing up towards the light implies motion and movement. Change is a continual factor here on earth.

When I perceive ignorance I know I am in that place, between the two worlds, where the old and new overlap and co-mingle. I see the changes coming and destruction increasing in the realm of the endangered but also I see them slowly awakening, more and more of us looking out to distant shores where lights twinkle softly in the night.

2010-02-05T14:02:00.002+01:00

Where there is acceptance there is relaxation, where there is calm there is creation, where there is reality there is perfection.

temporary appeal

2010-02-05T13:57:00.004+01:00

There are many distractions: pleasures, lust, possibilities, future events to contemplate, suffering of equals, mistakes that could be made, saving, saving, saving. The mind was screaming to be numbed out, getting lost is easier than reading the map, and getting lost holds so much temporary appeal.

This program needs an override!

Forcing your views on others, believing that you can change another human being directly or that you can alter some malfunction deliberately, still trapped in the notion of needing to do or/and change something when everything is fine just as it is.

mental organ

2010-02-05T13:43:00.011+01:00

Economy of recreation and of time management: deemed impossible.

Stretched calves and sinews, the complexity of the whole matters, the complexion, and the sex also matters.

Allowing, allowing, letting, no fighting, build up of tension and then relaxation.

The interference is blocking the manifestation, again and again I hear: have patience.

2010-01-12T18:43:00.000+01:00

2009-12-23T17:26:00.001+01:00

cosaswood

2009-11-29T19:44:00.001+01:00

2009-11-19T15:49:00.001+01:00

Pulau Pangkor, Malaysia

2009-11-19T15:32:00.003+01:00

Photo's from my recent trip to SE Asia. Pangkor.

Pangkor Island, Malaysia

2009-11-19T15:23:00.005+01:00

Photo's from my recent trip to South East Asia.

Celestial Speed-Up

2009-10-21T20:49:00.005+02:00

Read this excellent article about the Mayan Calendar and the current and coming evolution: http://mayasoma.wordpress.com/2009/10/18/celestial-speed-up/

November 8,2009 begins the 6th night of the creation phase of the Galactic Era. All the prophets of the Mayan Calendar are predicting a global calamity of the old economic systems on Earth in this next Gregorian Calendar year 2010. But deep down, we knew this, didn’t we?

Do you think the banking industry, Wall Street or the real estate market are now playing ethically because of their little shake-up? Enormous bail outs, dow jones climbing up and up, unemployment decreasing?

Somewhere inside, our gut instincts must be alerting us to the lies of the media and the disastrous conclusions of 5000 years of unnatural living. I remember mentioning that each era had a few challenges and set-backs. One of ours will be an economic collapse demanding fair & fail proof restructuring, the writing is on the wall.

“This fall is the real beginning of the great changes on Earth" (Barbara Hand Clow).

Maya Soma

2009-09-23T19:39:00.001+02:00

2009-09-07T21:12:00.000+02:00

the light in man

2009-09-03T22:05:00.000+02:00

If the light in man that he transmits is undesirable, those who are easily made the victim of his thoughts and feelings or those who are naturally affinitive with him may reproduce the effects of those thoughts and feelings in their own world. Many in the world today are victims of the thoughts of others – even the thoughts from other eras, which endure because mankind has fed its attention and its energies into them.

extra-sensory

2009-09-03T22:01:00.000+02:00

I am more aware of projection now, the projecting of personal traits onto others and yet at the same time I am also more clear-cut with perceptions. It would often be the case that I would perceive something but linger too long and absorb some of the emotions, I would also translate and internalize other people’s problems and lifestyles believing them to somehow be my own.

Really I made them my own but detached later.

Now I have perceptions and insights but I can separate easier, less absorption, less confusion, less comparisons. Marijuana can have something to do with the heightened perception but also with the intake of vibrations. The fact is that subtle matter can linger in the aura and weaken it or provide a boost and strengthen the aura, allowing expansion.

Be aware, know when enough is enough.

A2A

2009-09-03T21:53:00.003+02:00

You are not pretentious or too busy with yourself, you just listen to me as I spew, as I describe the insides of family ties, the nets that envelop me. You are an independent factor in my life, someone without subjective value and that is what I admire about you. Plus: the fact that all these things are relative to you who are familiar with the trials of life. You listen with both ears, allow pauses, and allow me time to adjust. You give me space when I call you after months. I know straightaway I can let go and just talk about those things that are haunting me right now and that you listen and know because you have been there. A friendship like this is precious because there is a knowing, here is trust, there are no forms, no values, no facades. There are open fields through open windows. Quite astonishing to realise you are here, to experience this connection however moment oriented for me: it stands timeless, it is vast, it spans lifetimes, it goes beyond human thought and as I go on and on, stricken with circumstances, you just listen and offer nothing but love. If anything will make anything better, it will be love.

2009-09-03T13:36:00.001+02:00

Cosaswood

turbulence invigorating

2009-09-02T21:40:00.006+02:00

There is a distinct nervous undertone felt deep within the earth and the distant singing of whales; their notes in the deep.

That is my destination: the sea.

First I thought I was jaded, tired of waiting, even apathetic. Then I thought of myself as slightly numbed, trailing in the path of Shiva.

In my dreams I see what I am reaping. The Subconscious is clearing and the past dissolving, burning out of control.

On the other side of that psychic filter awaits the mirror. Now I must see what I have become, but something has made me retreat and now I just wait, in between attentive listening and superficial destructive distraction.

I was moving towards that place where the water and the earth meet.

There is no judgment while feeling that nervous undertone, no fear while the tremors are felt.

From deep in the earth comes that consistency of nurturing, something that is ancient and ongoing. This thought is the relaxation.

Now I am in many places at once, nervous and excited as if in the throes of human love and all this in between the silent elation and the suppressed chaos, turbulence invigorating.

The Thin Red Line - Melanesian Choirs - Compilation

2009-06-23T16:13:00.001+02:00

system of belief

2009-06-23T15:58:00.003+02:00

How deceived was I to think that what I feared was in the world, instead of in my mind.

(Selections from a course in miracles: Accept this Gift)

echo of divine silence

2009-06-23T15:47:00.003+02:00

Some planets rolled in those openings on the side of my head.

I haven't heard anything for years. Whenever I see a mouth moving in front of me

I just assume someone is saying something brilliant

and then go on about my day feeling very secure.

~Tukaram (1608-1649)

the wild in me comes out in these desolate places

2009-06-23T15:39:00.006+02:00

You and I, we are made up of broken fragments, sharp edges and smooth bends. You say that you have broken something, that we are broken now.

On the contrary I am more whole now than I was before.

cognitive alchemy

2009-06-16T15:26:00.005+02:00

A new perspective has arrived and made a nest for itself in my mind, this is not about right or wrong, good or bad, black or white or dark and light. This perspective has slowly been taking root and is objective in its release of realizations and nurtures self acceptance and self respect; this is a key lesson for me right now. It is all about me seeing the bigger picture and perceiving every minute detail as a unique experience from which I can learn. Experience is everything and it is a gift.

The salvation aspect here is that when life is encountered through this new perspective than emotional attachments and distress as responses to an experience or feelings of not being in control become none-existent or at any rate less. For example when being confronted with some so called “negative aspect”, instead of the usual (negative) emotional response, the emphasis in my mind is on the experience and the lesson involved.

What this perspective is ultimately teaching me is self-acceptance and self-love and those qualities and affirmations have a tremendous grounding effect. Trust also plays a role in this process, if you can truly accept and believe that everything that is happening to you is exactly what you need than you can breathe a deep sigh of relief and away fall the negative responses and emotions.

Relief causes us to turn back into the downstream flow of life and abundance; it is the so called breakeven point on the emotional scale. Through this ability to witness every situation as a valuable experience I can gain wisdom and get to know myself better which in turn allows me to grow, change and learn but also to enjoy life as it comes with it’s duality and confrontations and transmute the negative into something positive.

Read what Gandhi says about experience here.

2009-05-27T22:43:00.000+02:00

Photo: Cuno Van Voorst

2009-05-24T21:20:00.003+02:00

Red Tree Times

perception is everything

2009-05-24T21:18:00.001+02:00

What you percieve in others you are strengthening in yourself.

(Selections from a course in miracles: Accept this Gift)

nothing unreal exists

2009-05-24T21:14:00.003+02:00

Reality only brings perfect peace. When I am upset, it is always because I have replaced reality with illusions I made up.

(Selections from a course in miracles: Accept this Gift)

defense illusion

2009-05-24T20:52:00.008+02:00

When you feel the need arise to be defensive about anything, you have identified yourself within an illusion.

(Selections from a course in miracles: Accept this Gift)

pass a tree like ours

2009-05-08T21:02:00.011+02:00

Turning around I see your chair is empty, you have been won over by the world, taken by the city. You stand behind me with your arms around me and your head resting on my shoulder, just a ghost now lover.

Where you see them hand in hand; feel your own without mine and when you see them kiss; know that my mouth is here. When you gaze upon the moon; know that I am gazing too and when you pass a tree like ours, think of me; lost, left, loose.

I saw a pretty face today; with a smile like yours, dancing on the side walk to my music. Brought me a coffee she did and a man about your age wearing boots like yours winked at me in the subway. His eyes were friendly, he wanted.

Walking in the park, watching dogs play, I suddenly thought you were at home making tea and waiting for me. The sun was shining so bright, I couldn’t even feel the fear or the cold only life rearranging reality, meandering, weaving its beauty around me.

So I smoked a cigarette and strummed my guitar with the same nonchalance as you and when a young couple asked me for directions I said I was from out of town and didn’t know the way, it was not a lie metaphorically speaking.

Part of the process is being upset and reset. Part of the recess is being restless for rest. The blankets are cold, the bed is cold, the night is old but I am starting fresh. I was never one to get sentimental without you, talking of past events, back to myself, older now and wiser somehow.

2009-05-01T19:43:00.001+02:00

2009-04-26T11:00:00.004+02:00

The nature of Helios is a secret of the god; and a man's first business is to know himself, and seek the source of light in his own soul. We don't eat anything we see, but have to learn what our bodies can turn to good, So with the mind.

~ Lysis quotes Sokrates (The Last of the Wine by Mary Renault)

He ahold of my hand has completely satisfied me

2009-04-26T10:33:00.001+02:00

A glimpse through an interstice caught,

Of a crowd of workmen and drivers in a bar-room around the stove late of a winter night, and I unremark’d seated in a corner,

Of a youth who loves me and whom I love, silently approaching me and seating himself near, that he may hold me by the hand,

A long while amid the noises of coming and going, of drinking and oaths and smutty jest,

There we two, content, happy in being together, speaking little, perhaps not a word.

2009-04-20T16:47:00.005+02:00

I swear the earth shall surely be complete to him or her who shall be complete, the earth remains jagged and broken only to him or her who remains jagged and broken.

Red Tree Times

inner dialogue

2009-04-02T19:48:00.005+02:00

You have to believe that there is more. The future is a mystery, take comfort in that. Even now as you wait and seemingly you have been waiting for a long time, all is as its meant to be. People may come and flaunt their fortune or appear to you better, it is not so, all things are temporary, all things fade away like the sun sets each day. You in your time will prevail and gain only to disarm a fellow human with your success, a rising sun, self respect must remain, this must be what you gain, and a face may glint and shine though the heart within is sour.

I love you more every hour; I love you more every day but even that will fade away, or is love the one thing that remains? At the end it may be my only asset, my only garment, my shrine, the love I have felt for you; this love sublime.

Glad to see my possessions passed on, less is more to me as I grow, to remind me of the futile hoarding, the simple things hold a peace within them, never hurting my pride, never wasting my time. My peers cause me to be restless and sad and come to me restless and sad but why?

Because they have the pretense of life, they are on the stage, in their prime, chasing after those things that cause me to fear for a few seconds and then I smile inside. I am young, I am strong, and I am beautiful. Happy to watch my plants grow, lucky to know all that I know, fortunate to be alive. Disappointment is becoming foreign to me like an unpracticed tongue, like a book I no longer read and so pass on.

Zandvoort Woods

2009-03-31T23:53:00.001+02:00