mystery of the alter

Post 8/8 returned to normalcy minus the fairytale programme, the connectedness of all things is just too obvious. Only the flesh now holds me back on this frequency of loss. My only vice is impurity through biological urges that pollute my pristine nature, so although the connectedness is obvious; the appropriate action to take in order to stay balanced remains elusive.

For some reason I don't trust or appreciate balance or the peace vibration enough to move away from lust and surely having a body entails sensation of a physical nature, seems mind is more invloved in this than matter.

Many men go to great lengths to humor me, to catch my eye, it must be the lust for life, the strength, I shrug them off. This will never leave me though it may grow less. I really don't want anxiety or depression but the link is there; the connection to all people and things.

Life has more to do with inclusion through acceptance than elimination through discrimination. Life is holistic. Moving up on the spiral is still the spiral. Leaving behaviour behind that no longer serves us, naturally and in due course, entails accepting the present moment as somehow appropriate. Choose to react in one way or the other based on knowledge and knowing or based on denial of truth, the path of ignorance, deceit and numbness. Constant fulfillment of pleasure equals constant loss of energy.

This dynamic calls for me to master it, I just don't know exactly how and I lack discipline. It calls for me to indulge in it with equal measure. If I flirt with death for too long, it shows me the agenda, causes me to delve deeper; curiosity and pain both force me to see that the body and the mind still control me. Soul rebel would train me, I can't properly enjoy the tension anymore, i can't be enticed long enough to build on such a foundation. In a nutshell: I still havn't kept a space of earth long enough for substance to remain, maintenance of substance is so important.

Don’t involve Rasta in your say say

Don’t forget your history;
Know your destiny:
In the abundance of water,
The fool is thirsty.

All things end in the Tao

This above all - to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as night follows day, thou canst not then be false to any man.

Knowledge and human power are synonymous.
- Francis Bacon

Shift happens

Existence finds its fulfillment in transcendence.

Affirmations for Freedom

I always get exactly what I need from life in order to learn and grow.

I am confident and at ease with my sexuality.

I enjoy life, I am having so much fun.

I am a calm and revitalizing presence.

I respect myself and I respect others.

I am fully engaged in life.

I am balanced and grounded at all times.

I am a free and sovereign being.

I accept and allow success in all areas of my life.

I allow myself to love and be loved.

I create harmony wherever I go.

I am at peace within.

sparsely inhabited parts of the U.S. (states like New Mexico and Texas)

The Negative Nancy Gatekeepers of the Modern American Mind

even as I am fully known

feeling and sensing some tolstoyan qualities with this
a little too dualistic though maybe
i appreciate even
faith, hope and love
i have found prayer to be beneficial
reiki too
reading the upanishads also
older than christianity
much older
i appreciate

wine refrain

honesty of expression
in such a closed scene

warm glow of joy
your hair, eyes

I realised
an aura of serenity

makes the summer night
hold so much, so close

he is in the hearts of all

The wandering swan of the soul dwells in the castle of nine gates of the body and flies away to enjoy the outer world. He is the master of the universe: of all that moves and of all that moves not.

Svetasvatara Upanishad

keeps all things under his protection

Come down to us, Rudra, who art in the high mountains. Come and let the light of thy face, free from fear and evil, shine upon us. Come to us with thy love.

Svetasvatara Upanishad

instinctive emotional states that trigger our deepest subconscious fears

When we want to extricate ourselves from the controlling behavior of another person, a group dynamic or the culture of Controllers, we first must study these behaviors inside our self, in our relationship with others and in the culture that we are part of. When we understand the Culture of Control, we must stop allowing these dark forces to work through us. This is the process of which we purify our minds and emotions of these thoughtforms, which helps to purify our heart, thus purifying our multiple layers of bodies and spiritual house.

when we place boundaries and speak very clearly and neutrally, we can dissolve the tension that has been created

How to set better boundaries immediately:

1. Learn how to use the 12D shield and protect your Lightbody.
2. Realize that low self-esteem is equal to little to no boundary setting.
3. Inquire and decide what your core values and ethics are. What do you value?
4. We cannot change others, we only can change ourselves.
5. Reflect on the consequences of actions ahead of time.
6. Let your consistent behavior and actions show boundary setting, not necessarily words.
7. Say what you mean and mean what you say.

Culture of Controllers