My aura can become enlarged and I can mostly control it. I can send energy through space, I can send thoughts, it is possible. This is a reality I am used to, perhaps not yet fully adjusted to.
The ethics involved
still puzzle me, for example whether or not it is ok to send someone x or y
I know that energetic rape exists but also energetic
healing, I know it's possible to remove a blokkage or entity from
someones field just with the snap of the fingers or a simple thought.
presence alone may be uplifting and I must trust in life orchestrating
all humans somehow, so that my presence does not effect something without the other wanting it or allowing it or enjoying it.
are the karmic processes that are set in motion when I send someone
Be it my physical energy or thought energy, images, words and
all the rest, general day to day interaction is always happening but if
you manipulate someone psychically; is that 'bad'?
lies in the word; manipulate (handle or control (a tool, mechanism,
etc.), typically in a skillful manner: "he manipulated the dials").
feeling is that any kind of manipulation that is detrimental to the life
force of another is 'not done'.
Does sending energy to someone
intefere with their free-will?
This whole phenomenom raises alot of
questions about the nature of free will and whether or not on some level
there is consent from both parties in order for it to take place.
I don't feel that I am free to think certain thoughts, sometimes I feel
I need to censor my thoughts just in case the person I am thinking
about knows what I'm thinking about them or feeling for them or about them.
Sometimes there seems to be no psychic privacy, I am not schizofrenic, sometimes I am overtly paranoid.
decides though what is bad or good for another and what about the
reasoning of doing something just because you can, because it is
possible for you to do so?
The secret force is there for
those who are honorable. It is available to those who can integrate it
fully. Just like learning to ride a bike or drive a car; it takes
practise, it takes experience to learn to use the secret force properly without
causing injury to self or others. There must be some heart space for it
to rest in.
It is very powerful. There doesn't seem to
be much info on this subject as of yet; the mind-power thing and it's
correlating energetic manifestations, it certainly is unknown terrain
for most of us at this time.
This is not a drug induced
phenomenon athough it is very much alike to some of those experiences.
absolutely an altered state/reality here but it's more like the
'freakish' reality is the predominant one. The reality in
which these things do not exist is unreal to me and more like an altered
state of consciousness when I experience it.
Sometimes I think I
tampered with my brain a little but the force continues to grow
stronger, previous posts on this blog confirm this and my psychoactive substance ab use on the other hand gets less and less.
Reiki has been a huge factor these last years. There is a link, it's all unraveling; any control I believed I had but didn't want.
I think I am a
little scared of this power because I know it is so easily abused, I have been down that road before, the one where violation is involved and
it scares me, unconsciously and consciously, ok semi consciously. I may
be trying to avoid situations in which I could be seduced into using this ability
for my own selfish (percieved) gain.
It's not something I can switch on or off! If my life force is weak or ungrounded then the force is less available and also weak for use.
I am puzzled about consequences. I seem to have no choice in the matter, this integrity is practically forced upon me by this ability.