melancho remix

26/09/2014

dark thunderheads approach

through the windows here

I am this body that aches  

creaks alone

day is passing white sand

through my fingers 

evening comes as a remedy 

soothing as a lotion 

cracked skin of my land

drink of the old solution 

the song of Solomon it carries
as a siren across the tide

drowning in the creek
face down in the stagnant water

I hide in the grasses 

weeping for my lost shepherd

in the darkness I am racked 

for my heart is over the moor 

with sadness on his brow 

like was his trade

3 card spread on animal rights

After watching this movie...

Should all animals be free and is it ok for us to eat them?

The Lovers

• RELATIONSHIP
• SEXUALITY
• PERSONAL BELIEFS
• VALUES

Nine of Wands

• DEFENSIVENESS
• PERSEVERANCE
• STAMINA

Queen of Swords

• HONEST
• ASTUTE
• FORTHRIGHT
• WITTY
• EXPERIENCED

engaging in shadow projection

“Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.”

– Carl G. Jung

Carl Gustav Jung suggested that everything we feel about (or see in) another person is comprised of about 75% of our own “stuff”, our infamous shadow (i.e., the unconscious aspects of ourselves) – which we project, in either positive or negative ways, onto others; but in reality, such perceptions really have nothing to do with the other person. A more accurate indicator of an individual’s character and intentions are based on one-on-one interactions with them in real life, from a place of grounded awareness of self and the experiences which accompany that ‘work’.

individuality-embodiment-and-the-anchoring-of-a-higher-frequency

you start and finish right here

Overindulgence in desires makes one greedy, the cup will never overflow that way, the aura will fray; become rough and coarse around the edges. 

Life becomes the hunting grounds where everything that is worth a dime is out of bounds, all that would replenish you becomes completely foreign with time. 

The heart hardens in the desolation of the hunt for the ever elusive; now all sentient beings are your prey. Unable to sustain your own energy, you must feed, you cannot receive. 

Really you are fine, branded as a slave, burning bridges behind you, empty as the store you plundered. You claim to be un-save-able yet never were you closer to redemption than now, closer to salvation than now. You start and finish right here.

suffering! truth! all part of the show!

To know, to really know, well there is suffering involved, there is absolutely no escape from the torment and it always reaches an unbearable, intolerable physical and emotional boiling point; the body starts falling apart, the mind can no longer remember the goodness of soul. There comes a kind of breaking point (the tower) and one is humbled in ones pride, in ones belief in illusions. Desire.

To know truth, one must pass through the eye of the needle, in that one must be completely honest and completely surrendered to this life-force that is a huge mystery. One must give up all pretenses, all idea's of one's own power, then may arise virtue.

How the apparel confuses, how the smiles deceive, how the lost seem to be found, how the wretched feign happiness and they believe it, so unaware are they of their own unrest, that falseness repeats itself. In deceit they may cower and hide, seemingly to rise, yet they are fallen so far now.

Yet have I to meet a man that has soul rebel qualities, yet have I to meet a man that is disgusted with this programmed human nature as I am, or a man that even knows anything human as programmed or humanity as nature, or even of this subject, this experience, that it exists, that the mind can think about this. Yet have I to meet a man that is fully aware of his complicity in this decaying form, that does not revel in this sickness, that does not wallow in his ignorance, that will not be part of this entropy.

Those that seek balance are filled with chaos; the mind or society they seek to balance is one that cannot be restored, the life they seek to balance is rooted in ego chaos. They will have to change completely, holistically. It can be likened to a pretty flower, plucked in joy; then withering in the hand.

Those that know good and that know evil, those that can differentiate properly, that still may hear; they suffer, maybe the most. The suffering is not so much a question of bruised ego, or the unfulfilled desire, or poverty or even pain, the suffering comes forth from knowing, awareness, consciousness. You cannot hide for very long, the truth of who you really are, the soul of a man, it moves, it says; seek truth or suffer, know truth or suffer. The suffering of most people is tied in with ego; not getting what they want, feel they deserve, what they desire. This I would call superficial suffering for true suffering has no physical qualities, it comes from the soul, it is existential in nature, it has more to do with 'not being' and less to do with 'not getting'.

The cruelty to self is the denial of truth, the denial of truth leads to deceit, lies, cheating, unfairness, evil. Yet they that deny truth, know it not. Of all things in this life; it is truth and living in truth, and knowing oneself in truth that brings the greatest relief, the finest reward, the peace that need not be understood, the true 'being'. Life is a dance with truth; a game of hide and seek.

Alas, there is no trust in the life-force, the mystery, they mistrust goodness, evil may be more predictable for them, the darkness may be safe or they just don't know the difference nor care for it if they did. They question not, only allow, give consent to war, destruction.

All part of the show! Judge not! (All of the above).

language of isolation

I write this as the sun sets behind the house opposite from mine and the people I know sink further and further into matter. I feel I am stuck socially because I care not for such limits; the parameters of systems. I feel zero motivation to take part in the game, yet I am lonely.

Can there even be a meeting of two or more that leave the conditions and outdated routines behind, just to contemplate the vastness for a little while?

I would just want to be human together without 'the world' intruding and controlling.

Although it is not my job to be moral nor am I particularly so inclined, let alone to judge another, I seek to be soulful in thought and action, so to connect fully with my surroundings. Forgive my romantic nature, it is unrealistic maybe, impractical surely.

I would understand: that all is well in my world.

Who will join me here?

You must live up to my high standards. They are not harshly out of reach, only invisible to the naked eye, fluid, ethereal. I speak the language of the soul. Sounds foreign to the people I know, I find myself conversing in the coarser common tongue.

Please show me how to appreciate matter better, that I may communicate with them, so that I maybe can vibe with someone. This disconnected experience is crushing me. Not for lack of nice people, they are here. It is the lack of 'soul family'. I care not for these conceptions, structures, systems of control, not complicit in deception.

I go through life feeling like a complete alien here on earth whilst overactive in my internalized intuition and the imposed structures mean nothing to me with my externalized projection.

How they adhere to this tradition of persecution is beyond me, yet I have to change and adapt to this code.

What balance? Between living and dying the world is gained and the soul lost.

The world is the world. People will always be people.

This isn't so much about them as it is about you; the witness. It is your perception that you interpret and act upon, behave by, learn from, enjoy. There are those that are relearning the language, there will always be enough to get by on. You can speak your truth, in fact; you will never be able now to do otherwise.

The Law of Consent

What we hold as our intention in our personal thoughts is what we hold as our consent. Most humans are unaware that our thought-forms, their vibrational quality and force, as well as the energetic consequence of the thought-form substance created, have an impact on the self and others. This sum total of our entire energetic signature is what interfaces with the collective consciousness of the entire planetary body. What we observe today in the global scape is the result of every single person's individual thought-forms that make up the collective consciousness body of the earth. When we pay attention to what is happening on earth, we can see the snapshot of the vibrational quality of the average collective thought-forms, or what human beings are really thinking.

What we think is what we create through Intent, Consent and Structure.

single-soul-occupancy

Whenever you become empowered, you will be tested.

Intuition is natural by-product of flowering of a mature self-esteem and a sense of empowerment – not power over, but power to be.

To love yourself, truly love yourself, is to finally discover the essence of personal courage, self-respect, integrity, and self-esteem. These are the qualities of grace that come directly from a soul with stamina.

Whenever you become empowered, you will be tested.

The act of forgiveness is the act of returning to present time. And that's why when one has become a forgiving person, and has managed to let go of the past, what they've really done is they've shifted their relationship with time.

Keep your honor code between you and God, you don’t break that, no matter who's not looking. God is.

Caroline Myss

healing is the return