I saw them cross the twilight of an age, The sun-eyed children of a marvellous dawn, The great creators with wide brows of calm, The massive barrier-breakers of the world
11/04/2007
words to accompany me
12/02/2007
wasted without words
21/01/2015
to communicate the truth and to facilitate
Philip K. Dick
24/07/2016
How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are
Sigmund Freud identified this pattern more than one hundred years ago. Traumatic re-enactment, or “repetition compulsion,” as Freud coined it, is an attempt of the unconscious to replay what’s unresolved,so we can “get it right.” This unconscious drive to relive past events could be one of the mechanisms at work when families repeat unresolved traumas in future generations.
Freud’s contemporary Carl Jung also believed that what remains unconscious does not dissolve, but rather resurfaces in our lives as fate or fortune. “Whatever does not emerge as Consciousness,” he said, “returns as Destiny.” In other words, we’re likely to keep repeating our unconscious patterns until we bring them into the light of awareness. Both Jung and Freud noted that whatever is too difficult to process does not fade away on its own, but rather is stored in our unconscious.
02/04/2017
Ayahuasca — The Fashionable Path of Awakening?
The New Yorker recently published an article on ayahuasca, calling it the “drug of choice for the age of kale”. The author narrated her only ayahuasca experience, in a Brooklyn yoga studio, next to a “thumping dance club”. The article makes no mention of the rich cultural diversity of ayahuasca traditions or the countless stories of ayahuasca-assisted personal transformation. However, I thought her association of ayahuasca with kale was spot-on. Ayahuasca may be answering the call for a global paradigm shift, yet it also fulfills an obsessive craving for wellness, detox, and healing. Plant medicines can be powerful catalysts for healing, when approached with individual and social self-awareness, and these two forms of awareness – of ourselves and of our society – are difficult to cultivate when we do what the cool kids are doing. What we can do is learn to discriminate between self-expression and imitation, and between the authentic desires of our hearts and the chatter of our minds. Are we acting from our core or simply being blown around by the cultural zeitgeist?
When to take ayahuasca?
These distinctions are absolutely necessary. Powerful tools can be misused and have damaging effects. My original inspiration for writing this article was a botched iboga ceremony that left me so traumatized that I was forced to accept that 1) there were some highly irresponsible and reckless shamans/healers out there and 2) there were highly irresponsible and reckless individuals like myself naively attending ceremonies without proper awareness. I’ll save the details for a future article, but I will share that I experienced an abyss so unbearably painful that my only wish was for it to end, without caring what came after this end. I understood the torment of suicide. These realms of consciousness are real. I share them here not out of masochism, but to emphasize the importance of preparation, discrimination, and intuition.
We can sharpen our skills by coming back to the basics: set and setting. Set – why am I here? And how do I really feel in my heart of hearts? Setting – do I feel safe? Do I trust this environment and the people around me? It is crucial to critically evaluate the shaman by their “fruits”: what type of life has this person created for themselves? How do they relate to their family and partner? How do they relate to their assistants and workers? Have the workers been there a long time? Are they happy to work there? These questions reveal a lot about what kind of person the shaman is, and therefore what kind of shaman they are.
We also need to de-romanticize our understanding of shamanic traditions. We crave for more natural, organic lives, for health, and for wisdom, so it is not a surprise that we fantasize about Amazonian tribes and their psychedelic brews. But our colorful projections have consequences and can reinforce racist, neocolonial dynamics. Not all medicines are appropriate at a given time or compatible with a given person. Indigenous peoples are born into tribes, whereas Westerners self-select into their tribes. Not all shamans heal; some throw curses; others do both. And I have yet to meet a shaman who calls themselves a shaman. Shaman is a word from Siberia popularized by Western anthropologists to categorize a wide variety of seemingly related spiritual practices.
Our interaction with indigenous medicines is not a one way street – with us simply “gaining wisdom” from them. As any quantum physicist or modern anthropologist will tell you, observation entails participation. It’s a two way street: the massive influx of ayahuasca tourists to the Amazon impacts local economies, culture, and healing traditions. In addition to our own healing, we need to remember that indigenous communities have their own healing to do. Are we operating as co-creators or are we imposing ourselves on them? Am I giving as much as I am taking? And where is all this ayahuasca coming from? This is not a question of shame, but of awareness.
The reality of indigenous peoples is not a Jungle Book fairy tale. Their cultures are steadily declining in the face of consumerism, missionary activity, and the rape of nature by oil pipelines and industrial super-farms. Ayahuasca tourism is a booming industry in much of the northwest Amazon and its reality is more nuanced than we like to think. Explore the backstreets of Iquitos, Peru and see for yourself the shadow side of the Western appetite for healing.
Please don’t mistake my words for pessimism. The intention that infuse these words is for renewed awareness and courage. Charles Eisenstein writes that “no optimism can be authentic that has not visited the depths of despair…no despair is authentic that has not fully let in the joy.” The world is not ending. It is only changing, as all things change. Stop, breathe, be gentle. May all beings be happy and peaceful.
Félix de Rosen is a free spirit who aims to catalyze conscious planetary evolution. His long-term vision is to organize sacred arts festivals and create spaces of trust, spontaneity, and transparency. He was born in France, grew up in the US, and is learning how to let go and relax. He is currently based in California.
24/02/2024
Chiron Romance
I wouldn't say that I am lonely just like I wouldn't say that I'm bored. It's only when this feeling of longing for you comes up over the course of a few days slowly building up; I realize how in denial I am about my feelings. How much time I spend in an abstract detachment. In a convenient numbness.
The feelings are interesting, help me to feel like I'm alive, I wonder why I don't seem to have access to them normally. I wouldn't say that they are painful exactly. I guess this is what true romance is. Not the fluffy, superficial, safe stuff they use to sugarcoat reality with but actual feelings of tearing, grasping, hoping, losing and grieving.
Am I in love with you? Rationally, no. I'm enraged by your behavior. The intensity though is quite unnerving, how much this is costing me. My sister says they are hooks that you have to remove from your energy body. How can disconnecting be so pseudo-painful and rendering to me unless I have some definite feelings for you and that despite of you doing next to nothing to warrant any kind of regard, let alone affection.
There it is though, some kind of antidote to my unconscious loneliness, an antidote to my boredom. You have done absolutely nothing to warrant any goodwill from my part and yet I'm in a turmoil of romance with you, full of a yearning tinged with despair. My rational-self looks on with disgust or is it pity at this pathetic display of co-dependence and drama.
You could be trying to remove my hooks but you don't even know that there are hooks, you don't even know how I feel. When you read my texts, I think you just see words. Words without connotation because you don't feel like I do. I've often wondered if you feel anything at all. Your heart is so full of graphene at this point, the whole thing is pointless, spiked with misunderstanding and fear. You shut down when I am near.
I welcome these feelings you bring up in me nonetheless. I haven't felt this much lust for life in an age, even with my other health problems that seem to be inflamed by this recent episodic love-fest, I still lye awake at night feeling such emotion, genuinely baffled at this uncovering of feeling, this woundedness. I'm floating in a debris field of karmic misery, this is the teat that humanity has been suckling on since the dawn of time; the myth of separation.
01/07/2007
poetry meme
Give us at least 10 quotations pertaining to poetry - from 10 different writers &/or poets which best coincide with your philosophy vis a vis ars poetica. They can be posthumous or otherwise. The order is not important - unless it is to you.
"If the number ten is too daunting, go for less." Well this did seem kind of daunting, I love poetry but have not yet really dug in as deep as I would like, I do have my favourites though and have decided to give as many as I could think of and add more as they come. Some of the quotations are from the same writers and the order is important, I suppose.
12/12/2006
dissonance between creed and deed
23/10/2006
Feeling the Vibe
Life technology
31/12/2008
The frequency of 2009
29/06/2022
What It Really Means To "Take The Red Pill
You see how people suffer, but they don’t know that they are suffering as their pain is masked up and suppressed, shoved deep into the unconscious, and hardened in the body-mind. Billions of people are sleepwalking, dreaming of being awake.
At the same time, you don’t look down at them anymore, for you can see the same mechanical nature, shadow, and trauma responses within yourself. You will have deeper and more authentic access to compassion and empathy but without blind compassion. You learn to make boundaries and become more selective and discerning about who you let enter your life.
But you also realize the true “horror of the situation” and how far away we are from any “collective awakening”.
You also realize the futility of looking for any significant change externally – a new system, any new -ism, or any political, social, institutional changes – all of it is useless as long as it is coming from people who are not aware of the true nature of their Being but live mechanically and automate under the influence of the “General Law” [the esoteric description of the matrix forces.]
It’s a humbling experience. It is dark, disturbing, yet liberating and enlightening at the same time. It’s impossible to put it into the limited constructs of language and words. Once you cross that threshold and start to “see the unseen”, there is no turning back to your “normal” life.
At that moment you really took the “red pill”. It will prioritize what truly matters in your life. You won’t waste time and energy anymore on the trivialities of official mainstream cult-ure and you cannot relate to the goals, pleasures, and desires you had in the past. You realize that they were stemming from your conditioned personality.
It is the starting point of the process of individuation where you will also need to face isolation, loneliness, and alienation as part of the process to escape the sleepwalking consensus state of humanity. This phase of alienation and isolation are lessons to test the sincerity of the seeker.
They have been symbolized in many esoteric metaphors of “crossing the moat-threshold” to “enter the Kingdom” with guardians providing riddles and tests for the soul that wishes to find and realize itself and leave the “wilderness” of the matrix.
Many people tend to get stuck in this stage. The alienation and loneliness can make people become hardened, cynical, and nihilistic, and they tend to blame the world for their misery in a victim mentality. They get caught in doom & gloom, negativity, and self-pity, and they resist the necessary [internal] death-rebirth process to individuate.
This resistance and inability to face oneself can also tempt the seeker to go back to “the wilderness of the matrix” as it was symbolized in the first Matrix film when the character Cypher decided to take “the blue pill” to go back to the illusion of the matrix. He made a deal with Agent Smith [symbolizing a Faustian Pact with the Devil] who granted him all the materialistic riches, fame, and popularity that consensus people cherish, worship and are tempted by as well.
Individuation is a necessary stage before we can embark on deeper spiritual/esoteric work to spiritualize our being. Embarking on the process of Individuation is “taking the red pill” from an esoteric perspective. [...]
- From "The Most Important Realization On The Path Towards Awakening"
https://veilofreality.com/2022/06/10/the-most-important-realization-on-the-path-towards-awakening/
06/05/2007
revolutionary movement
There is a wide variety of energy currents flowing throughout the Universe — what some of these individuals call "the Force", just like in the Star Wars series — and that people can learn to manipulate it with their minds ("where attention goes, energy flows") as well as through breathing (which is considered by some as the foundation and the key to unleash many of our latent powers), and use it for various purposes, such as healing, replenishing their energy (by breathing more deeply), raising their own frequency, tuning in and perceiving stuff located in higher frequency bands, as well as many other things...
That there is also a huge mission currently underway to try to free the world, wake up humanity and bring to people a deeper understanding of the situation we're in and what's actually going on behind the scenes... According to some reports, many animal species on Earth (such as dolphins) also have a profound hope that humanity will soon wake up and hopefully put an end to all of the cruelty and horror they are inflicting upon other living beings, and upon the Earth itself...
That there are oracles in our world, people who have the ability to relay information from beings in higher dimensions, to guide people, sometimes do remote viewing, and even in some cases allow a being from an higher dimension to speak through them or even temporarily take control of their entire body in order to pass a message... (what is better known as "channeling")
That humanity carries quite an heavy heritage genetically, and that several great civilizations have flourished upon the Earth throughout history (such as Atlantis and Lemuria, among some others that are even more ancient), but that most people are not aware of them at the moment...
That even higher levels of evolution and enlightenment can be attained by purifying ourselves and progressively getting rid of many of the patterns and memories buried within our genetic code, thus having one's energy field progressively grow larger, glowing brighter, and eventually reach deeper states of pure compassion and unconditional love for all living beings... Apparently, the final and ultimate step of evolution in our world is then ascension itself, where a person's body turns into pure energy and gains the ability to move on to the next level, in other words, to disappear entirely from this world and pass on to the next level, in the parallel universe above ours... According to some reports, some humans will probably begin to achieve this huge feat in the next generations to come...
Read this whole article - Overview of the moment - evolution today
31/03/2022
Shirley very openly speaks about her thoughts on death and dying
28/05/2022
17/05/2007
Take your medicine crazypants
Are you feeling a little depressed? Here’s a prescription for Paxil.
A little anxious over your first day at the new job? Pop a xanax.
Having trouble concentrating at work? Have an adderall.
We like fast fixes here, don’t we? We like to blow every negative thought, feeling and ailment out of proportion until we have ourselves convinced we’re a schizophrenic psychopath. What ever happened to good, old fashioned positive thinking and soul-searching?
Read this post: Take your medicine crazypants from the blog: Journey to self-improvement.
I was impressed by this post, not only because of the reality check (nation on medication) and the truth in these honest words but also because of the relevance, I have read alot of information, reports and experiences about medication and the effects on development and functioning and the negative aspects of prescription drugs. The comments on this post are also worth reading.
17/08/2007
others will be watching
Practising Responsibilty for Freedom
07/02/2022
Most human beings rarely - if ever - experience contact with the real “I”.
This real “I” is something like an impartial referee whose small voice is mostly obscured in the roar of external events and personality programs. Nevertheless, it is this tiny spark of the real self that is the seed of the possibility of esoteric development.
Most human beings rarely - if ever - experience contact with the real “I”. Yet, the personality pretends that it has achieved this level of consciousness. We should note that an individual who has actually reached such a level of firm contact and expansion of the real “I” will also possess attributes such as the ability to accurately judge the consequences of his or her actions, the constant exercise of his own will, an ability to do - to initiate acausal events - as well as a bearing or attitude that is consistent with itself in all situations and conditions. Most of all, such a person does not lie to himself.
An objective examination of many of those who claim such qualities is sufficient to demolish such pretensions. There is so vast a chasm between the qualities that people ascribe to themselves, and what they can really DO,.
Nevertheless, to establish contact with the higher self, for lack of a better term, this very small seed of the soul connection that exists within us is the object of esoteric science. It seems that the only people who have a real hope of accomplishing this process are those who are “bankrupted” [disillusionment].
In other words, all the beliefs, all the programs, all the lies that have been part of the self from childhood, must collapse or be stripped away.
We are all corrupted by the exterior world of matter - the domain of Non-being and its gravitational lures. Even when experience contradicts what a person believes about him or herself, they are seldom able to make the cause and effect connection because of the serious deficiencies that are programmed into us from birth.
We generally explain our failures as “lack of will”. What people do not realize is that failure is not generally due to a lack of will or desire, but to a lack of BEING. It is only with the development of BEING that we begin to understand the knowledge we have acquired. Only then, with understanding combined with BEING, do we have the ability to Do."
- Laura Knight, The Secret History of the World
@timeoftransition
31/08/2008
The Life and Secrets of Water
07/07/2021
Climate Change and the Time of Transition
In this quote below, Gurdjieff talked about climate change (literally using the same words) almost a century ago, taking a look at the issue from the perspective of cycles, esotericism, and the pursuit of higher Knowledge:
“There are periods in the life of humanity, which generally coincide with the beginning of the fall of cultures and civilizations, when the masses irretrievably lose their reason and begin to destroy everything that has been created by centuries and millenniums of culture.Such periods of mass madness, often coinciding with geological cataclysms, climatic changes, and similar phenomena of a planetary character, release a very great quantity of the matter of knowledge. This, in its turn, necessitates the work of collecting this matter of knowledge which would otherwise be lost. Thus the work of collecting scattered matter of knowledge frequently coincides with the beginning of the destruction and fall of cultures and civilizations.
This aspect of the question is clear. The crowd neither wants nor seeks knowledge, and the leaders of the crowd, in their own interests, try to strengthen its fear and dislike of everything new and unknown. The slavery in which mankind lives is based upon this fear. It is even difficult to imagine all the horror of this slavery. We do not understand what people are losing.
But in order to understand the cause of this slavery it is enough to see how people live, what constitutes the aim of their existence, the object of their desires, passions, and aspirations, of what they think, of what they talk, what they serve and what they worship….”
- Gurdjieff
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https://veilofreality.com/2017/09/09/climate-change-and-the-time-of-transition/