22/06/2013

so long Jane?

I'm set to release Mary. The days are already less hazy as I slow down. I wait for the night, fortunate to know the dreaming once again. Numb for so long but she has served me well. A seductive guide but with a promise. Whatever you desire, like smoke. I never made it to the house of the rising sun. By the wall of water I openly wept, moonbathing for awhile. Quite sober I returned to my bed for I longed to sleep.

21/06/2013

notes on the shadow self

I think everything comes down to personal preferences.
Karma is not a moral dynamic, morality is a human creation, the universe does not judge.
Each experience that you have and will have upon the earth encourages the alignment of your personality with your soul.
If I let these words sink in then I can get a nice glimpse of the perfection of it all, the magnificently orchestrated.
My mind waits in anticipation of that moment when it will know all the answers but my heart already knows that it alone can comprehend the fathomless depths of this existance because of it all being somehow a unity.
We experience what we require.
A contrast between likes and dislikes can be good because it can allow us to know what we want in life and to show us what could be better.
I know when I experience something that leaves me feeling disconnected that there is room for improvement somewhere.
It is because of the shadow that we even know:
There is no fear when love is near.
There is no judgment here.
Love contains infinite possibilities and it cannot be contained.
There are no limits to the happiness available to me right now.
We are everything, all of it, we are the light, we are the dark, every part of it is who we are.
The so called issues I have are here because I am ready to handle them and learn from them.
Frequency can shift.
Vibrations will lift.
There is no such thing as 'stuck' or 'being stuck' only something that I don't want to look at, observe, be present with. 
stuck, sticky, blocked = interuption, frustration, distraction, boredom = not wanting to be present in the body, resisting the calm, an opportunity for growth and movement. 
Wisdom comes to us in the things we (our personalities) often believe we do not want.
Everyone has light!
All are divine!
Accept and love all shadow.
The shadow shows us what we need, it shows us how, it shows us our power.
Allow me to learn your language.

18/06/2013

save2

When I walked, noodles in my backpack, I got lost but enjoyed walking slowly without a worry of time or place. Now I’m waiting for a living space, I dreamt I was there giving reiki in one of the rooms. Plant life in the morning over coffee and motown, sometimes biking to the train on a fresh feeling I can watch the life weaving again. Fashion causes anxiety, on purpose, it’s designed that way. I read that in a book this afternoon. Funny that having less people around in my personal life, feels like floating away, it’s a variety of freedom, see I’m accepting, I’m not fighting.

17/06/2013

in his lifelight

Capricious when I dial the phone. He gives tendency towards the crying sensation, the melting throat deal, rendering the present moment all. He makes me feel ever so comfortable in my fancy body and o so lithe in my limbs, and when he gives me that sideways winking smile; lovejoy.

Now I am crossing the street to get in beside him and have to suppress laughter as I remember some glitch from the night before. Savvy to be easy during life and to know always that the trip is going to be crossing several states before it lifts off. The sun is quite sparkly again but soothing to be blind, so bright in the rays.

Not one of those guys with their sad eyes leaning, the men desperately sweeping for change, metaphorical chains, he knows what it means, he knows where the life-force went in the war. He moves through my labyrinth with such confidence, it’s because he knows the way, quite a pleasure to see how he sometimes has a map in his memory.

So honesty really is quite liberating, it’s the green growing chi that climbs up towards the wind chimes. Every time I see something in him that I recognize, he gives me the gut cracklings and it’s enough, it's fine like this, it’s good like that. He teaches me.

21/04/2013

Old things pass away

Whenever a mind is simple and receives divine wisdom, old things pass away.

we won't be seeking out new adventures as much as welcoming the one we're already on with fresh eyes

A poet is a blind optimist.
The world is against him for
many reasons. But the
poet persists. He believes
that he is on the right track,
no matter what any of his
fellow men say. In his
eternal search for truth, the
poet is alone.
He tries to be timeless in a
society built on time.
― Jack Kerouac
Henceforth I ask not good fortune--I myself am good fortune.

Walt Whitman

28/03/2013

such a person does not define his life for himself

To be born in love
Is to serve all beings and all creation.
Real lovers serve ardently, hopefully,
And in an ecstasy of awe.
Look for the happiness
Of the servant of love-
All the joys of the world are nothing to it.

Rumi

05/03/2013

document

Document
This moment of clarity

Allow all feelings

Remember
The high
Rush of life

I crossed the twighlight of an age
With my wide brow
Forward and of calm

She took me through the dark years
Safe now from harm
My mind is set to release her

All must go now
and leave behind nothing

movement subtle bliss
reiki like
home

Document for him
This moment of clarity

22/02/2013

Yours are the eyes through which to look out

Yours are the Hands with which
The Divine is to bless all beings now

heart chakra

I now allow myself to love and be loved

most mysterious of mercies

When you were fresh and green
You drank water in the garden:
You drank water then to prepare you for this fire.

moonlight floods the whole sky

One day in your wine shop I drank a little wine
And threw off the robe of body
And knew, drunk on you, this cosmos in harmony
Creation, destruction I am dancing for them both.

24/09/2012

Come inside
Of the heart's house.
There is peace and solace there.
 
-Rumi