you start and finish right here

Overindulgence in desires makes one greedy, the cup will never overflow that way, the aura will fray; become rough and coarse around the edges. 

Life becomes the hunting grounds where everything that is worth a dime is out of bounds, all that would replenish you becomes completely foreign with time. 

The heart hardens in the desolation of the hunt for the ever elusive; now all sentient beings are your prey. Unable to sustain your own energy, you must feed, you cannot receive. 

Really you are fine, branded as a slave, burning bridges behind you, empty as the store you plundered. You claim to be un-save-able yet never were you closer to redemption than now, closer to salvation than now. You start and finish right here.

suffering! truth! all part of the show!

To know, to really know, well there is suffering involved, there is absolutely no escape from the torment and it always reaches an unbearable, intolerable physical and emotional boiling point; the body starts falling apart, the mind can no longer remember the goodness of soul. There comes a kind of breaking point (the tower) and one is humbled in ones pride, in ones belief in illusions. Desire.

To know truth, one must pass through the eye of the needle, in that one must be completely honest and completely surrendered to this life-force that is a huge mystery. One must give up all pretenses, all idea's of one's own power, then may arise virtue.

How the apparel confuses, how the smiles deceive, how the lost seem to be found, how the wretched feign happiness and they believe it, so unaware are they of their own unrest, that falseness repeats itself. In deceit they may cower and hide, seemingly to rise, yet they are fallen so far now.

Yet have I to meet a man that has soul rebel qualities, yet have I to meet a man that is disgusted with this programmed human nature as I am, or a man that even knows anything human as programmed or humanity as nature, or even of this subject, this experience, that it exists, that the mind can think about this. Yet have I to meet a man that is fully aware of his complicity in this decaying form, that does not revel in this sickness, that does not wallow in his ignorance, that will not be part of this entropy.

Those that seek balance are filled with chaos; the mind or society they seek to balance is one that cannot be restored, the life they seek to balance is rooted in ego chaos. They will have to change completely, holistically. It can be likened to a pretty flower, plucked in joy; then withering in the hand.

Those that know good and that know evil, those that can differentiate properly, that still may hear; they suffer, maybe the most. The suffering is not so much a question of bruised ego, or the unfulfilled desire, or poverty or even pain, the suffering comes forth from knowing, awareness, consciousness. You cannot hide for very long, the truth of who you really are, the soul of a man, it moves, it says; seek truth or suffer, know truth or suffer. The suffering of most people is tied in with ego; not getting what they want, feel they deserve, what they desire. This I would call superficial suffering for true suffering has no physical qualities, it comes from the soul, it is existential in nature, it has more to do with 'not being' and less to do with 'not getting'.

The cruelty to self is the denial of truth, the denial of truth leads to deceit, lies, cheating, unfairness, evil. Yet they that deny truth, know it not. Of all things in this life; it is truth and living in truth, and knowing oneself in truth that brings the greatest relief, the finest reward, the peace that need not be understood, the true 'being'. Life is a dance with truth; a game of hide and seek.

Alas, there is no trust in the life-force, the mystery, they mistrust goodness, evil may be more predictable for them, the darkness may be safe or they just don't know the difference nor care for it if they did. They question not, only allow, give consent to war, destruction.

All part of the show! Judge not! (All of the above).

language of isolation

I write this as the sun sets behind the house opposite from mine and the people I know sink further and further into matter. I feel I am stuck socially because I care not for such limits; the parameters of systems. I feel zero motivation to take part in the game, yet I am lonely.

Can there even be a meeting of two or more that leave the conditions and outdated routines behind, just to contemplate the vastness for a little while?

I would just want to be human together without 'the world' intruding and controlling.

Although it is not my job to be moral nor am I particularly so inclined, let alone to judge another, I seek to be soulful in thought and action, so to connect fully with my surroundings. Forgive my romantic nature, it is unrealistic maybe, impractical surely.

I would understand: that all is well in my world.

Who will join me here?

You must live up to my high standards. They are not harshly out of reach, only invisible to the naked eye, fluid, ethereal. I speak the language of the soul. Sounds foreign to the people I know, I find myself conversing in the coarser common tongue.

Please show me how to appreciate matter better, that I may communicate with them, so that I maybe can vibe with someone. This disconnected experience is crushing me. Not for lack of nice people, they are here. It is the lack of 'soul family'. I care not for these conceptions, structures, systems of control, not complicit in deception.

I go through life feeling like a complete alien here on earth whilst overactive in my internalized intuition and the imposed structures mean nothing to me with my externalized projection.

How they adhere to this tradition of persecution is beyond me, yet I have to change and adapt to this code.

What balance? Between living and dying the world is gained and the soul lost.

The world is the world. People will always be people.

This isn't so much about them as it is about you; the witness. It is your perception that you interpret and act upon, behave by, learn from, enjoy. There are those that are relearning the language, there will always be enough to get by on. You can speak your truth, in fact; you will never be able now to do otherwise.

The Law of Consent

What we hold as our intention in our personal thoughts is what we hold as our consent. Most humans are unaware that our thought-forms, their vibrational quality and force, as well as the energetic consequence of the thought-form substance created, have an impact on the self and others. This sum total of our entire energetic signature is what interfaces with the collective consciousness of the entire planetary body. What we observe today in the global scape is the result of every single person's individual thought-forms that make up the collective consciousness body of the earth. When we pay attention to what is happening on earth, we can see the snapshot of the vibrational quality of the average collective thought-forms, or what human beings are really thinking.

What we think is what we create through Intent, Consent and Structure.

single-soul-occupancy

Whenever you become empowered, you will be tested.

Intuition is natural by-product of flowering of a mature self-esteem and a sense of empowerment – not power over, but power to be.

To love yourself, truly love yourself, is to finally discover the essence of personal courage, self-respect, integrity, and self-esteem. These are the qualities of grace that come directly from a soul with stamina.

Whenever you become empowered, you will be tested.

The act of forgiveness is the act of returning to present time. And that's why when one has become a forgiving person, and has managed to let go of the past, what they've really done is they've shifted their relationship with time.

Keep your honor code between you and God, you don’t break that, no matter who's not looking. God is.

Caroline Myss

healing is the return

Depriving the emotional centre of its proper energy?

THC, in my experience, moves fine energies to the intellectual and instinctive centres and away from the emotional and moving centres. effect on the creative impulse was neutral.

upsides - perceptions were more vivid. thinking used more of available knowledge base and was more discerning. downsides - emotions and movement were most likely to be experienced intellectually and instinctively. true emotional drive was dampened, i tended to recede into my mind, interaction with outer world was reduced.

for me, the substance was useful for putting together the pieces, so to speak, and for conceiving of what would be appropriate to do, but was ultimately unproductive in that it lead to no real doing, and in certain ways, prevented it.

there is a tendency among those who wish to see differently to dabble, and i cannot recommend one way or the other as it is a personal choice. although i know the positive effects are attainable without chemical assistance. whats more, in light of the Mouravieff material, depriving the emotional centre of its proper energy would seem to have serious negative consequences in terms of esoteric development.

this is my experience, for your perusal. and, as always, its subject and open to change.

Birdman on cassiopaea.org/forum smoking is good?

shamanic Mckenna

From sadistic bloodsucking to greener pastures

We carry on eliminating the BS, one second at a time, try to raise our consciousness to silently radiate peace to the world, meditate on courage. Polarity integration is like breathing or eating for us or the heart beating for us. 

As far as we create our own reality abraham stuff, how can the future not be bright, shining, fulfilling for us?

Knowledge protects; we accumulate knowledge and it changes us, the knowing changes our vibe, therefore we create based on what we know, it protects us....spiritually but we must put the knowledge into action somehow, being a passive bipolar in a sick world doesn't help or does it? 

As you were saying life is a bit of a dichotomy at all times, full of paradox, like for example the: do we need to fully get rid of the psychopaths or do we need them? a bit of both right?

or we create our own reality but did children really want to be sacrificed, or raped or starved? uno the first six years are the forming years, we are talking about the years in which a child learns its creation programme or mind is formed.

or we must take action, steps, movement, flow, work but really we don't need to know HOW we are going to get what we want, we don't need to be preoccupied with HOW we are going to do anything, our positive, pleasant vibe is enough. 

Work is joy, actions are gifts. 

HOW to deprogramme the mind without suffering? Again, the HOW? Apparently we can learn all of our lessons in bliss and happiness, it doesn't have to be negative.

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The understanding I think is in the 'knowledge protects' theory/lifestyle/survival and the 'ignorance endangers' themes too.

Ultimately some of us humans do seek balance on all levels and therefore wholeness, completeness, healing and know that it could be so, some of us feel that the convictions/programming/studies that claim that man is naturally violent and self-seeking and its a nature problem, not a nurture problem are BS, and that man has inherent goodness inside, locked away due to trauma from outside forces. I would almost believe however that there are many different dna/breeds/types/mutations/genetic manipulation and that there are some f***ed up strands all mixed in there, one big juicy mess of polar opposite forces all tangled up.

Anyways being a soul-rebel uno, I speak rather the shamanic language, I look at the soul of a man, I speak to the spirit of man and I pass judgement but with a comforting nod or wink, for truly all is not lost.

Do the masses, fellow human beings all get destroyed? Whose soul lives on? The organic portals or those lacking soul potential or STS polarized do they get stuck or split? Do the 'generally 'good' people with STO potential do they transition to greener pastures?

So every one answer in this life is like a thousand new questions and so in order that we stay tuned into this frequency to be able to experience this physical life we jolly well need our ego or we would just burn, just go insane. Seems some negativity is grounding us or something, like the ego can control us, the me, me, me mode comes forth from survival fight or flight due to impending trauma from living life with the elements, roving beasts, diseases, pain, hunger, war, NWO, PTB etc. Who wants us stuck here on earth and why? 

Yes, life on earth can be paradise, it truly is at times, often pretty ok actually but still, we are like cattle to them, we are their prey, they feed on our negative emotions. We (all) are stuck here on earth like a fly that landed on the planet for a quick taste/sense, then the spider came to suck us dry, and we could have buzzed off quickly to a new system but we got trapped, stuck in a web of lies, hypnotized by the beast, it wants us alive for sadistic bloodsucking, but really, really, we can escape, we have wings, we can fly the solarsystem.

So I realized that I have been stressed, so stressed about my situation, fight or flight that I was not able to see the redemptive light.

The body says STOP! ultimately, the body is the 'enough is enough' shut down system, the body is amazing, such a brilliant, beautiful and compassionate one. The body speaks a language too. It says: I love you, I will endure for you, I love you enough to die for you and I will kill you if you fuck around for too long and don't listen to what I'm telling you.

Don't mind my musings, hope they amuse you.

http://www.sott.net/article/295289-Epidemic-depression-as-a-wake-up-call-to-humanity