cognitive dissonance

Sometimes people hold a core belief that is very strong. When they are presented with evidence that works against that belief, the new evidence cannot be accepted. It would create a feeling that is extremely uncomfortable, called cognitive dissonance. And because it is so important to protect the core belief, they will rationalize, ignore and even deny anything that doesn't fit in with the core belief.
- Frantz Fanon

the write riddle

I must write what I know, but I know not what to write. I don’t know what to make of this life.

One moment I feel joy to be part of this world and another moment I fall apart on the floor and I know tears. For many years I have known sorrow and war.

Is this what I know?

I must write what I feel, but I don’t feel right.

Sometimes I take delight in simple things but later on I‘m afraid about future states of mind that are unkind.

This must be what living is like for me. These are the eyes with which I see.

Are these my hands with which I write?

I must write what is real but what is there at the core?

There are stories about people, images of moments, emotions and more.

Who am I? What am I here for?

I am here to write about something real knowing then that I cannot write.

At the core there is no right or wrong only silence, no words, and no violence. No reason for writing or fighting.

Nothing exists at the core.

Does nothing real exist?

These last few days I have felt a deep sadness. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore.

VAXX ENTITIES AND TRANSHUMANISM

"It took many attempts before we understood the powerful effects of BioNTech, Moderna, AstraZeneca and Johnson&Johnson. Important thing is that - spiritually speaking - at the core, these are filled with Soratic beings. Of course, all other groups of adversarial spirits are also involved. At first glance one can experience Ahrimanic beings, perhaps also Asuric beings. However, inside of them the Soratic beings are at work, setting the tone.

These beings do not originate from the development of our solar system and in this respect must be considered as outer-planetary spirits. Unlike the Luciferic and Ahrimanic fallen angelic beings, they are not part of the development of our spiritual planetary system, described in detail in Rudolf Steiner's "Occult Science".

Through human unconscious attraction or conscious invitation, they gain access and can thus influence our life on earth. The Soratic beings are known for thousands of years; they inspire oppression, abuse, hatred, war, black magic, etc. But today a new kind is also emerging.

Some people within my research network are skilled in perceiving the Soratic beings. Yet, this new species was at first incomprehensible and unclassifiable to us. There is also no established terminology for this species. We have chosen the term “Spirits of Transhumanism” because these beings seem to be at the spiritual core of transhumanism. Transhumanism wants to merge human being with machines and thus to abolish our soul-spiritual being forever.

Supersensibly, the transhumanism spirits do exactly that. The spiritual effects are already here even if the brain is not yet connected to a computer – a dream of the transhumanists. They reach for the human being, and if they gain access, human beings loose - partially or completely - their spiritual connection.

For this purpose, these beings possess especially the Phantom body (physical spirit body) and the etheric body. They “glue" them together and shut them off from soul and spirit and the soul-spiritual surroundings. In this respect these beings want to turn the human being into a “Machine-Man", cut off from the spirit.

We found that all group spirits of the four examined vaccines are occupied by the spirits of transhumanism. Moreover, we found them in individual ampules, through which they enter the human being by means of vaccination.

To spiritual experience they appear as “devoid of the “I” metallic”, “brute” and threatening.

A colleague encountered a leading group spirit of one of the vaccines. Its intention came clearly to light:

'I saw a high spirit being of the vaccine, a narrow, rugged, sinister figure, extremely evil, with a will of annihilation of everything that is human: The angel is as if cut off, the etheric pulverized, the soul subjugated, the Self extinguished. What remains are devoid of I, empty shelled automaton people; scrawny, rickety, metallic; they are to be held like puppets on a long string.'"

- translated from the original German book “CORONA-IMPFUNGEN AUS SPIRITUELLER SICHT: Auswirkung auf Seele und Geist und das nachtodliche Leben” by Thomas Mayer

More in our recent podcast: https://veilofreality.com/2022/05/04/how-eliminating-the-soul-paves-the-way-for-transhumanism-tcm-83-part-1/

Temperament Theory

Temperament theory describes four organizing patterns of personality and is based in descriptions of behavior that go back over twenty-five centuries. It tells us the "why" of behavior, our motivators, and sources of deep psychological stress. Knowing our temperament patterns tells us our core needs and values as well as the talents we are more likely to be drawn to develop.

History of the Four Temperaments

The human community can be regarded as a system, holistic in nature, seeking survival. Throughout the ages, observers of human behavior have repeatedly identified four major patterns or configurations of behavior. Such holistic sorting of behavior patterns has been recorded for at least twenty-five centuries.

In 450 B.C., Hippocrates described four such dispositions he called temperaments—a choleric temperament with an ease of emotional arousal and sensitivity; a phlegmatic temperament with cool detachment and impassivity; a melancholic temperament with a very serious, dour, and downcast nature; and a sanguine temperament full of impulsivity, excitability, and quick reactivity. During the Middle Ages, Philippus Paracelsus described four natures whose behaviors were said to be influenced by four kinds of spirits: nymphs, sylphs, gnomes, and salamanders.

Most twentieth-century psychologists abandoned holistic observation of human behavior for a microscopic examination of parts, fragments, traits, and so on. To them, all human beings were basically alike, and individual differences were due to chance or conditioning.

Two German psychologists, Ernst Kretschmer and Eduard Spränger, were among the few to continue to view individuals holistically in terms of patterns. Inspired by their work, a modern psychologist, David Keirsey, noted common themes in the various observations and the consistent tendency of human behavior to sort itself into four similar patterns. These four major patterns are referred to as temperaments. They describe the ways human personality interacts with the environment to satisfy its needs. Linda Berens continues to expand our understanding of these four temperaments through her unique contributions; including the core needs, values, talents, and behaviors of the four temperament patterns.

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On the psychology of the conspiracy denier

Tim Foyle
Reporting For Beauty
Sat, 06 Mar 2021 08:17 UTC

Why is it that otherwise perfectly intelligent, thoughtful and rationally minded people baulk at the suggestion that sociopaths are conspiring to manipulate and deceive them? And why will they defend this ill-founded position with such vehemence?

History catalogues the machinations of liars, thieves, bullies and narcissists and their devastating effects. In modern times too, evidence of corruption and extraordinary deceptions abound.

We know, without question, that politicians lie and hide their connections and that corporations routinely display utter contempt for moral norms - that corruption surrounds us.

We know that revolving doors between the corporate and political spheres, the lobbying system, corrupt regulators, the media and judiciary mean that wrongdoing is practically never brought to any semblance of genuine justice.

We know that the press makes noise about these matters occasionally but never pursues them with true vigour.

We know that in the intelligence services and law enforcement wrongdoing on a breathtaking scale is commonplace and that, again, justice is never forthcoming.

We know that governments repeatedly ignore or trample on the rights of the people, and actively abuse and mistreat the people. None of this is controversial.

So exactly what is it that conspiracy deniers refuse to acknowledge with such fervour, righteousness and condescension? Why, against all the evidence, do they sneeringly and contemptuously defend the crumbling illusion that 'the great and good' are up there somewhere, have everything in hand, have only our best interests at heart, and are scrupulous, wise and sincere? That the press serves the people and truth rather than the crooks? That injustice after injustice result from mistakes and oversights, and never from that dread word: conspiracy?

What reasonable person would continue to inhabit such a fantasy world?

The point of disagreement here is only on the matter of scale. Someone who is genuinely curious about the plans of powerful sociopaths won't limit the scope of their curiosity to, for example, one corporation, or one nation. Why would they? Such a person assumes that the same patterns on display locally are likely to be found all the way up the power food chain. But the conspiracy denier insists this is preposterous.

Why?

It is painfully obvious that the pyramidical societal and legal structures that humanity has allowed to develop are exactly the kind of dominance hierarchies that undoubtedly favour the sociopath. A humane being operating with a normal and healthy cooperative mindset has little inclination to take part in the combat necessary to climb a corporate or political ladder.

So what do conspiracy deniers imagine the 70 million or more sociopaths in the world do all day, born into a 'game', in which all the wealth and power are at the top of the pyramid, while the most effective attributes for 'winning' are ruthlessness and amorality? Have they never played Monopoly?

Sociopaths do not choose their worldview consciously, and are simply unable to comprehend why normal people would put themselves at such an incredible disadvantage by limiting themselves with conscientiousness and empathy, which are as beyond the understanding of the sociopath as a world without them are to the humane being.

All the sociopath need do to win in the game is lie publicly whilst conspiring privately. What could be simpler? In 2021, to continue to imagine that the world we inhabit is not largely driven by this dynamic amounts to reckless naiveté bordering on insanity. Where does such an inadvertently destructive impulse originate?

The infant child places an innate trust in those it finds itself with - a trust which is, for the most part, essentially justified. The infant could not survive otherwise.

In a sane and healthy society, this deep instinct would evolve as the psyche developed. As self-awareness, the cognitive and reasoning abilities and scepticism evolved in the individual, this innate trust impulse would continue to be understood as a central need of the psyche. Shared belief systems would exist to consciously evolve and develop this childish impulse in order to place this faith somewhere consciously - in values and beliefs of lasting meaning and worth to the society, the individual, or, ideally, both.

Reverence and respect for tradition, natural forces, ancestors, for reason, truth, beauty, liberty, the innate value of life, or the initiating spirit of all things, might all be considered valid resting places in which to consciously place our trust and faith - as well as those derived from more formalised belief systems.

Regardless of the path taken to evolve and develop a personal faith, it is the bringing of one's own consciousness and cognition to this innate impulse that is relevant here. I believe this is a profound responsibility - to develop and cultivate a mature faith - which many are, understandably, unaware of.

What occurs when there is a childish need within us which has never evolved beyond its original survival function of trusting those in our environment who are, simply, the most powerful; the most present and active? When we have never truly explored our own psyches, and deeply interrogated what we truly believe and why? When our motivation for trusting anything or anyone goes unchallenged? When philosophy is left to the philosophers?

I suggest the answer is simple, and that the evidence of this phenomenon and the havoc it is wreaking is all around us: the innate impulse to trust the mother never evolves, never encounters and engages with its counterbalance of reason (or mature faith), and remains forever on its 'default' infant setting.

While the immature psyche no longer depends on parents for its well-being, the powerful and motivating core tenet I have described remains intact: unchallenged, unconsidered and undeveloped. And, in a world in which stability and security are distant memories, these survival instincts, rather than being well-honed, considered, relevant, discerning and up to date, remain, quite literally, those of a baby. Trust is placed in the biggest, loudest, most present and undeniable force around, because instinct decrees that survival depends on it.

And, in this great 'world nursery', the most omnipresent force is the network of institutions which consistently project an unearned image of power, calm, expertise, concern and stability.

In my view, this is how conspiracy deniers are able to cling to and aggressively defend the utterly illogical fantasy that somehow - above a certain undefined level of the societal hierarchy - corruption, deceit, malevolence and narcissism mysteriously evaporate. That, contrary to the maxim, the more power a person has, the more integrity they will inevitably exhibit. These poor deluded souls essentially believe that where personal experience and prior knowledge cannot fill in the gaps in their worldview - in short, where there is a barred door - mummy and daddy are behind it, working out how best to ensure that their little precious will be comfortable, happy and safe forever.

This is the core, comforting illusion at the root of the conspiracy denier's mindset, the decrepit foundation upon which they build a towering castle of justification from which to pompously jeer at and mock those who see otherwise.

This explains why it is that the conspiracy denier will attack any suggestion that the caregiving archetype is no longer present - that sociopaths are behind the barred door, who hold us all in utter contempt or disregard us completely. The conspiracy denier will attack any such suggestion as viciously as if their survival depended on it - which, in a way, within the makeup of their unconscious and precarious psyche, it does.

Their sense of well-being, of security, of comfort, even of a future at all, is completely (and completely unconsciously) invested in this fantasy. The infant has never matured, and, because they are not conscious of this, other than as a deep attachment to their personal security, they will fiercely attack any threat to this unconscious and central aspect of their worldview.

The tediously common refrain from the conspiracy denier is, 'there couldn't be a conspiracy that big'.

The simple retort to such a self-professed expert on conspiracies is obvious: how big?

The biggest 'medical' corporations in the world can go for decades treating the settling of court cases as mere business expenses, for crimes ranging from the suppressing of adverse test events to multiple murders resulting from undeclared testing to colossal environmental crimes.

Governments perform the vilest and most unthinkable 'experiments' (crimes) on their own people without consequence.

Politicians habitually lie to our faces, without consequence.

And on and on. At what point, exactly, does a conspiracy become so big that 'they' just couldn't get away with it, and why? I suggest it's at the point where the cognitive ability of the conspiracy denier falters, and their unconscious survival instinct kicks in. The point at which the intellect becomes overwhelmed with the scope of events and the instinct is to settle back into the familiar comforting faith known and cultivated since the first moment one's lips found the nipple. The faith that someone else is dealing with it - that where the world becomes unknown to us, a powerful and benevolent human authority exists in which we have only to place our faith unconditionally in order to guarantee eternal emotional security.

This dangerous delusion may be the central factor placing humanity's physical security and future in the hands of sociopaths.

To anyone in the habit of dismissing people who are questioning, investigative and sceptical as tin foil hat wearing, paranoid, science-denying Trump supporters, the question is: what do you believe in? Where have you placed your faith and why? How is it that while no one trusts governments, you appear to trust nascent global governance organisations without question? How is this rational?

If you are placing faith in such organisations, consider that in the modern global age, these organisations, as extraordinarily well presented as they are, are simply grander manifestations of the local versions we know we can't trust. They are not our parents and demonstrate no loyalty to humane values. There is no reason to place any faith whatsoever in any of them.

If you haven't consciously developed a faith or questioned why you believe as you do to some depth, such a position might seem misanthropic, but in truth, it is the opposite. These organisations have not earned your trust with anything other than PR money and glossy lies. True power remains, as ever, with the people.

There is a reason why Buddhists strongly advise the placing of one's faith in the Dharma, or the natural law of life, rather than in persons, and that similar refrains are common in other belief systems.

Power corrupts. And, in the world today, misplaced and unfounded trust could well be one of the greatest sources of power there is.

Massive criminal conspiracies exist. The evidence is overwhelming. The scope of those currently underway is unknown, but there is no reason to imagine, in the new global age, that the sociopathic quest for power or the possession of the resources required to move towards it is diminishing. Certainly not while dissent is mocked and censored into silence by gatekeepers, 'useful idiots', and conspiracy deniers, who are, in fact, directly colluding with the sociopathic agenda through their unrelenting attack on those who would shine a light on wrongdoing.

It is every humane being's urgent responsibility to expose sociopathic agendas wherever they exist - never to attack those who seek to do so.

Now, more than ever, it is time to put away childish things, and childish impulses, and to stand up as adults to protect the future of the actual children who have no choice but to trust us with their lives.

This essay has focussed on what I consider to be the deepest psychological driver of conspiracy denial.

There are certainly others, such as the desire to be accepted; the avoidance of knowledge of, and engagement with, the internal and external shadow; the preservation of a positive and righteous self-image: a generalised version of the 'flying monkey' phenomenon, in which a self-interested and vicious class protect themselves by coalescing around the bully; the subtle unconscious adoption of the sociopathic worldview (e.g. 'humanity is the virus'); outrage addiction/superiority complex/status games; a stunted or unambitious intellect that finds validation through maintaining the status quo; the dissociative protective mechanism of imagining that crimes and horrors committed repeatedly within our lifetime are somehow not happening now, not 'here'; and plain old fashioned laziness and cowardice.

My suggestion is that, to some degree, all of these build on the foundation of the primary cause I've outlined here.

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The Atlantian brotherhood conflict is still playing out its karmic patterns in the contemporary world at this time

Since the Nephilim Wars the Nibiru Annunaki Resistance and Patriarchal Melchizedek factions decide to take over the Inner Earth and start aggressive campaigns to take over the earth territories 30,000 years ago. The Sirians warned them about the abuse of crystal technology in the earth core and these groups continued to force massive power generators into the earth and Crystal Caverns. Several power generators exploded and ripped apart the surface continents of the earth, more powerful than the previous Cataclysm at the time of the Lemurian Holocaust, killing many humans again.

The planet Earth tilted on its axis which damaged all Planetary Gates, Planetary Grid Networks the portals and Stargates on the planet. All the Pyramids and ET technology disconnected and went offline. Flooding and cataclysm destroyed the Atlantian colonies and much of the earth surface. This timeline is also referred to as the Atlantian Flood.

Atlantis Timeline Summation

The Atlantian brotherhood conflict is still playing out its karmic patterns in the contemporary world at this time. There are multidimensional levels, pinnacles of conflicts in the middle east, Iran Gate that are fighting over energies and control in ancient inter-dimensional portal gateways going back to the Lyran Wars.

2012 so far

Expansion, clearing and cleansing of blokkages in the energy field. Anxiety at the speed of the transformative waves of energy but a thrill to be alive is there too. There is a will to focus on inner balance, purity of thought and speech, insight and awareness into one's core motivations. More feelings of lightness in the body because of a pure and whole diet, a respect for all beings because of increasing compassion. Feeling of spinning and vibrating, periods of intense peace and relaxation, the calm. Negativity seen for what it is, on all levels the duality on full display, pressure for a few days and then suddenly release, rollercoaster energy patterns. Final testing. Detachment and grounding easier, everything is getting easier to aquire through mental/spiritual approach. Visualization greatly enhanced. Experience of time is all different now.

THE REAL PANDEMIC

DISCLAIMER: Due to the sensitive content discussed in this podcast, I suggest you don't listen to it with young children around; ideally over 18 years and under parental supervision. Also if you are a survivor, be aware that there may be triggers here for you. Use your discretion and if in doubt, don't listen. It is not our intention to upset anyone with what we discuss, but it is important to share stories like Max's, in order to expose the corruption and evil that sadly, way too many innocent children, experience. The more people understand how this dark network operates, the better. Thank you for watching and please share if it's appropriate for you to do so.

THE REAL PANDEMIC

There are few people in this world that I would refer to as heroes. Max Lowen is one of them. A survivor - or "overcomer" as she prefers - of satanic ritual abuse Max now shares her story with others to draw attention to what she believes (as do me and many others), is the REAL global pandemic.

Max is a survivor, truth teller, healer and advocate for children. She shares her experiences as a survivor of SRA (satanic ritual abuse), torture and sex trafficking within the Vatican and amongst the globalist (d)elites. Her journey of healing and recovery and her work (as a psychotherapist) with trauma survivors, illustrates the resilience of the human spirit and is a guide to how all of us can heal ourselves and come together to end the abuse of children forever.

Naturally, there will be those who deny these things happen, simply because it challenges every foundation and belief they have and possibly because they have suffered the same and it's too difficult for them to process. That is understandable, however, the reality is, that this kind of abuse IS happening and it lies at the very core of every government, religious and educational faction in the world. Has for CENTURIES. This is not just something that just popped up as a "conspiracy theory" when Q was in the spotlight either. Civilizations have been built on occult satanic sacrifice and the harvesting (looshing) of energy. I remember speaking about it at the start of the C19 circus, and many yogis and spiritual "teachers" vehemently refuting this (and attacking me for saying it does). I hope they have since woken up and developed more compassion and wisdom.

Please remember that whilst it is difficult for us to listen to these kinds of things and accept that they exist, imagine how the children (and animals) who have EXPERIENCED IT, feel. This is their reality and as conscious human beings, I believe we simply must find the courage to speak out in defense of them and against a such unfathomable evil. We must find the strength to do the right thing.
FYI, this video lasted 30 minutes on my YouTube channel before being removed. I often wonder how other "truthers" sharing similar content, manage to escape the cull and are able to remain online? Interesting...

Source: Denby Sheather

hidden power

Energy is pouring through every pore of my flesh. My presence is broad and clear and is felt by all I gaze upon, for they turn their faces towards me when I near them and they stand in awe at my passing. In their eyes I see a mix of respect, fear, jealousy, a longing and a lust for the forbidden. Will I allow them into my flow, into the depths of my soul and into my warmth?

I cannot help it, I am almost floating and my body feels loose, sensual but sharp. I am in turn absorbing waves of energy from all present and like a hunter, sleek and magnificent I prowl through the crowd, searching with my eyes, like two huge flashlights that leave none uncovered, no eye contact is needed for I am aware of all. My mind would now and then stretch out towards someone, invading their consciousness, feeling their presence like a warm buzz spreading through the crown of my skull.

Pleasing to the eye, yet if you catch these eyes, they could leave you dumbstruck and embarrassed, so much can be displayed in them. There are many answers and so many more mysteries, tales of hidden valleys and ancient forests, lost islands and vast oceans and more than that; the very core of existence. I hold the human component in my hand and wear the ethereal on my brow.

I can literally experience the energy like waves around me, enticing their eyes. On my face a genuine look of peace and calm, a kind of bewitched heaven, concentrated on the vibe, distracted by the hidden and the calling of many. A wanting I read in numerous souls, a yearning to partake of my energy, to feel connected. Beware fool! A wicked mind is a weapon of mass destruction. Parts of me are being destroyed.

©2005Brow of Calm

Developing energetic discernment

Without exercising personal choice that comes from developed energetic Discernment, an individual is left to express the larger impersonal forces of the collective unconsciousness and the controlled manipulation of impersonal forces in the environment. Through the physics of the energetic reality, the person expresses the core energetic resonance they embody, which harmonizes with the larger collective consciousness body, which they attract. To have choice beyond the collective unconsciousness matrix, one must develop higher sentience towards greater enlightenment, and begin to perceive how the layers of the Collective Consciousness function throughout creation. Enlightenment in this context refers to being released from the confines of service to self, suffering, dark ignorance, attachment to material things, and the state of Soul Disconnection. The same states that reinforce the continued cycles of death and reincarnation into the lower realms, without consciousness memories, identities or spiritual purpose remaining intact. It means we are released from the states of consciousness, which exist in the larger collective unconsciousness.

Collective Consciousness Co-Creation of Timelines

undefined space

Not really lonely, just alone, I was born for other times, they are still to come. I’m not really gone, just far away from all the others. This time round I’m not doing what I usually do to forget this. I have been nurturing a silent cold for many years now and I will be incubating for some time to come. I am feeling this flow on my own. It must be this way; I won’t forget the truth I learnt or that of which I am now breathing in. It is becoming a new thing this time around; something I can be comforted by and something that one day will be claimed as undefined space. I am in a place of utter inward motion and non described emotion, the core of all my actions to come and the end of all my human dissatisfaction.

For those of us that feel frightened by what we can see happening

“For those of us that feel frightened by what we can see happening on the outerscape, go within and develop your inner spirit and relationship to God/Creator in order to know that you are eternal and timeless, so that you can become fearless. The most effective form of collective resistance to tyrannical demands and immoral laws is mass civil disobedience, which means that you unite with others and take a stand that you will not comply with unreasonable demands that go against your core spiritual integrity and cause damage to you and your family’s wellbeing. It is important as a collective that we unite together to not direct harm within your communities or towards other humans that are being victimized by the same controller agendas, to instead be sure to focus attention on revealing to others the actual top-down source of exactly who is imposing the tyranny or acting out the evil harm directly. This can be easily tracked, one simple way is to follow the big money, see who is actually funding the anti-human agendas in a maze of non-governmental organizations that are masking themselves as philanthropic causes run by Controller approved board of directors deeply enmeshed in global anti-human agendas. The swamp creatures indeed hang out with each other and serve on the same boards and organizations of global interests that they use to launder money all over the world to pay off people to commit evil on their behalf. Spreading awareness and informing others about what is happening to exert global tyranny through the manufactured pandemic crisis is a positive step in the right direction. If the pandemic was orchestrated on purpose by the same evil psychopaths that created the problem in order to bring the solution via the genetic modification shots, it helps to break the hypnotic spell of why anyone would give this to children.”

https://circleofthedolphins.wordpress.com/

Earthsongs Awakening

i want to be near you

I am now starting to understand that relationships really are mirrors and that our interactions with others are precious and valuable for self-reflection and growth.

Intimacy and sexuality with another can enable us to reach to deeper layers of ourselves.

What do we find there?
Clarity or confusion?

At least now I can see myself in a broader perspective, my habits, my addictions, the illusions I cling to, my insecurities,
also; my strength, my purpose, my worth, my dreams and my pleasure.

To realize this with you is like getting a new vision of my core needs, the things I really appreciate.
I am constantly changing and growing, I am a work in progress,
I see that I have become aware of more, I know much, more than before, thanks to my interaction with you.

I may move on or I may linger, I may want to hold onto you for a little longer, I may be able to live with you and share this life with you and be whole, despite the difference; still be sovereign, still be me in every sense.

I understand that there must be compromise between differing levels of consciousness, balance between views, a bridge, a common ground. I can continue to live by what I know to be right and honor your choices, respect your unique path even as I maybe disagree with your actions or style or vibe.

The greater knowing allows for all things to be and has reverence for the unfolding of life, the unraveling that spreads out in all directions and is non-linear, surely this will allow for great expression and creation,

I am sure that all my problems can be resolved, all aspects can be healed throughout time/space if this is required.

I see that I don't mind being uncomfortable, I don't mind being confronted, I don't mind feeling uncertain, no disdain when I'm with you, I can handle this because I want to be near you.

duality discussions 3

Life as a school?

It would seem you are jealous of the complacency, it seems you are envious of the safe and predictable lives because you have a different brain chemistry that just needs intensity but at the same time you judge your experience as boring, unsatisfactory and unrewarding.
Really, as if someones appearance and fashion taste are divining, as if cursory outward details are a reliable signpost to whats under there, or in there or hanging around there?
Don't judge a book by it's cover, bookman. 
You forget I have psychic perception to a certain degree.
I don't like the word degree, I don't like the educational system, I thinks it totally fake.
Yesterday she said: it's your personality remember, always wanting to delve deeper and deeper, ever deeper for the core. You may have more thoughts in one day than your average human has in a year.
Can't you just accept that everyone is absolutely fine in their own way?
You compare yourself with people who are on a completely different trip. You claim you are on some kind of path that goes way beyond tolerance and yet you judge others without any regard for the tailored curriculum of the earth school.

from the archives

at the core 
there is no right or wrong 
only silence
no words, no violence, 
no reason for writing or fighting

melancho

26-09

I don't understand, I don't understand, living well seems to be to no avail here

I miss u baby.

So close by there are those that succeed in this game and then there is loss.

The lust lies scattered like dust over this silver, there is no core to this pain, there is no explanation for this missing, this fate is just choking me.

I know you go on with her, with them, into the distance you are walking and I feel like I will forever be trailing, out in the cold behind.

Kiss me one more time for this forbidden love ending, you can hold your head high with your companions and me on the sidelines, I have been waiting, filling up the cracks with studies of life; futile.

I knew I was cheating myself, falling in love with this premonition, when I should know when fear is gone, numbness prevails.

It looks like the longing for a full, deep and intense experience is universally present but can never be fulfilled in this life, any experience of this is fleeting and perishable, fragile.

This results in clingy behavior but desire is rotting, it stinks and yet it never leaves us.

To be able to feel and know anything in its totality is a futile pursuit and impossible for it goes against the nature of reality in which only change is a constant.

We will be forever moving through differing states, moving through contradicting emotions and relationships and pining for a state of love, pleasure or contentment that is lasting but nothing lasts beyond any measure of time, certainly not love, certainly not desire.

When the dark thunderheads approached me through the window, here was this body that aches and creaks alone.

For the day is passing like the white sands through my fingers, for the evening comes as a remedy to be mixed, soothing as a lotion for the cracked skin of my land.

I drink of the old solution that I once shared, the song of Solomon and in the air it carries as a siren across the tide.

Drowning in the creek, face down in the muddy water, I would surface but hide, in the grasses I weep for my lost shepherd, in the darkness I am racked for my heart.

He came over the moor with sadness on his brow, like was his trade.

When the music comes in the night; the dub reggae, then shall I slow down to meet the memory of you while I lye and absorb. 

Drinks can never fully numb me out to this romance, smoke can never fully cloud the movies of the mind, sleep can not shut out the sensation of skin on skin. 

Your perfume lingers on my shirt, the band plays on, the floating chords.

For those awakening beyond the divisions purposely generated through identity politics and culture wars, most reasonable humans can agree that something is very wrong in the worldscape today, and can unquestionably observe an anti-human death culture being incessantly promoted and growing rapidly in society like the viral infection.

I intend to clear all artificial viral loads, retrovirus and related viral overlays that have been put in my genetic record, and in the history of recessive genes in the bodies that I am inhabiting at this time.

I am the Eternal Self, I am one with the Eternal Body.

Humanity is in the midst of a hidden intergalactic conflict over personal sovereignty and spiritual freedom that is becoming increasingly visible in the physical material world when observing the current global events. This is a time of heightened spiritual warfare against all aspects of human freedom. This crisis event is a major milestone in the ascension timeline in which we must look deeply into our authentic core self and ask our inner spiritual guidance for the answers when addressing the greater problems humanity is facing. This is a collective dark night of the soul transition forcing us to look deeper. What kind of person do you want to be in the midst of the turmoil that is happening during the manufactured global crisis that is unraveling? Awake and aware? Asleep at the wheel?


We must be willing to overcome fear and denial and to be potentially very uncomfortable when seeing the ugly truths staring us in the face, attempting to hide behind the current manufactured crisis events. Connecting the dots of the disinformation campaigns being deployed in order to see the accurate motivations hidden behind the weaponization of the narrative, that is becoming clearer in the mainstream news every day. We must also understand the roll out of the Pestilence Program as an attempt to activate a global bio-spiritual weapon, which is being used to buy more time. This is a mass distraction to veil the mobilization of covert alliances and counter forces into multiple negotiations, calculated to organize another strategic effort to seize control of the planetary resources. Further, there are the wolves in sheep’s clothing directly profiting from the orchestration of these multiple enslavement agendas to escalate the faux global pandemic into a full-blown economic crisis, intended to be the major catalyst for hijacking a rapidly changing and evolving global society. The shifting architecture in the planetary grid network is worlds apart from what it was just a few short years ago, making the current crisis events much less effective than anticipated. The NAA will not be achieving the end game results that the Power Elite are expecting, by culling the masses.


The positive aspects are that many nonspiritual and spiritual people are waking up simultaneously to see that the nature of the reality is actually an inverted system. That generally, society functions in the opposite of what the masses are being told to believe in the mainstream narrative. The veneer of the 3D narrative propped up by the controlled mainstream media is crumbling and many are able to see the mass manipulation and gaslighting tactics clear as day. For those awakening beyond the divisions purposely generated through identity politics and culture wars, most reasonable humans can agree that something is very wrong in the worldscape today, and can unquestionably observe an anti-human death culture being incessantly promoted and growing rapidly in society like the viral infection. Thus, an assortment of aggressive mind control and propaganda tactics have been greatly accelerated into every segment of global society, designed to steal human sovereignty and instigate terror and survival fears at every turn.

https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/3586-pestilence-program

planetary near-death experience

Whether the earth is shaken by natural catastrophes, or nuclear warfare, or both, earth and the life upon it does survive. More than that, however: A New Age emerges and the devastating changes that have preceded it are understood to have been necessary purgations effecting the transformation of humanity into a new mode of being. By analogy, just as the individual near death experiencer may have to endure the pain and suffering associated with the trauma of almost dying before positive personal transformation can take place, so the world may need to undergo a “planetary near-death experience” before it can awaken to higher, more spiritual, collective consciousness with universal love at its core. – Kenneth Ring, Transpersonal Psychologist

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when we place boundaries and speak very clearly and neutrally, we can dissolve the tension that has been created

How to set better boundaries immediately:

1. Learn how to use the 12D shield and protect your Lightbody.
2. Realize that low self-esteem is equal to little to no boundary setting.
3. Inquire and decide what your core values and ethics are. What do you value?
4. We cannot change others, we only can change ourselves.
5. Reflect on the consequences of actions ahead of time.
6. Let your consistent behavior and actions show boundary setting, not necessarily words.
7. Say what you mean and mean what you say.

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words to accompany me

I am here now, all I have is now. All I have are words to accompany me. The words pour forth; they witness the loneliness, the solitude of bitterness. They have become the wanderer of an earth.

I am always trying to be there. Looking out across the mountains in complete depth. To be inside and outside in complete calm. Disappear.

I am here now, all I have is now. All I have are words to accompany me. The explanation, the handbook for the would-be witness. I can let the words out, let them stand out. They can become the script.

This can be my place of worship, this can be my church. Deep in the core. All planets across the sky. My landing strip: Mercury, Venus, Earth?

I am here now, all I have is now. All I have are words to accompany me. The library I mention in my will, the testament of no-choice. I can scatter the words behind me. Little seeds that fall on fertile ground.

IanSmith©2007