Steady in the light; quit smoking

I'm trying to stay steady.
All I need is an affordable living space.

As soon as I start looking I'm just filled with feelings of extreme rage at the situation.
Even though I am feeling generally good.
I am the one that has to get an appartment.

As for angels, I do not talk about them alot.
Would be foolish to believe that anyone was looking out for me.
After all; many, many people have gotten alot more by doing a lot less than I have.
Like getting appartments, flats, decent affordable living quarters.

I hate life, I hate the fact that it costs so much effort.
Praying for others always gets them stuff but as for me...
suffer, I always suffer.

I'm just just having another rant.
I need ciggies, at least I always had the feeling that I was slowly killing myself.
That was always a pleasant thought.

I deserve a great house to live in after all I have been through.
I deserve alot of things, too stupid to even imagine.