Honestly, it has been hard, extremely difficult at times, to function and operate in society, with other people, with the systems and institutions that are in place and with the mindset and beliefs of 'other' people.

So what? if the whole game is rigged, if most people will never wake up, if the world is going insane and slowly all life is being poisoned by the cult of selfishness and death, so what?

This conscious witness is calm, responds appropriately, no emotional reaction, understands the support, both eyes open to see the beauty in the breakdown.

http://browofcalm.blogspot.com/search/label/THE%20WORKS%2015

To construct an Ark

Religious myths might be the narratives of an ancient technology and knowledge of the cosmos that far surpasses our present day understanding, as well as a warning to us about some perilous state in which we are living, and some future event toward which we are heading. The myths, rituals and ceremonies of the ancient religions are but surviving fragments of this technology from which the true significance has vanished.

Out of time - The secret history of the world - Laura Knight-Jadczyk

sacred shroom

we used them as currency
cost sometimes more than a reindeer

first chewed by the women
then eaten by the men
baked in the rysbes

the flesh of the gods
high in protein
when meat is scarce

illud tempus of the soma
by snake and by toad
we seek thee

divine mushroom of immortality

manual for the meek

allow for the transhumans
to roam the flat earth
if they so please

let the zombie-folk
explore the weeping willow

unless they awaken
then lead them out
into the field for release

theory is always multiferious
don't read too much into it

will I go back to chaos?

Living on the freedom timeline entails choosing consciously to create an environment, a life-space, that allows one to feel comfort-able, it means that all thoughts and actions as a framework are built on a solid foundation of trust and self-love.

Show us the way of true nutrition; healthy foods for the body, healthy thoughts for the mind, healthy energies for the spirit, not really in any particular order, just that the physical body will relay all things back to us as emotions, as states, as creations.

Keep it all fresh and clean, there is underlying order to all things. Saturnian gifts rearrange reality, maintain perfection with clarity. Now I can understand where I've been and what I know; that the tree of life may grow and grow.

mystery of the alter

Post 8/8 returned to normalcy minus the fairytale programme, the connectedness of all things is just too obvious. Only the flesh now holds me back on this frequency of loss. My only vice is impurity through biological urges that pollute my pristine nature, so although the connectedness is obvious; the appropriate action to take in order to stay balanced remains elusive.

For some reason I don't trust or appreciate balance or the peace vibration enough to move away from lust and surely having a body entails sensation of a physical nature, seems mind is more invloved in this than matter.

Many men go to great lengths to humor me, to catch my eye, it must be the lust for life, the strength, I shrug them off. This will never leave me though it may grow less. I really don't want anxiety or depression but the link is there; the connection to all people and things.

Life has more to do with inclusion through acceptance than elimination through discrimination. Life is holistic. Moving up on the spiral is still the spiral. Leaving behaviour behind that no longer serves us, naturally and in due course, entails accepting the present moment as somehow appropriate. Choose to react in one way or the other based on knowledge and knowing or based on denial of truth, the path of ignorance, deceit and numbness. Constant fulfillment of pleasure equals constant loss of energy.

This dynamic calls for me to master it, I just don't know exactly how and I lack discipline. It calls for me to indulge in it with equal measure. If I flirt with death for too long, it shows me the agenda, causes me to delve deeper; curiosity and pain both force me to see that the body and the mind still control me. Soul rebel would train me, I can't properly enjoy the tension anymore, i can't be enticed long enough to build on such a foundation. In a nutshell: I still havn't kept a space of earth long enough for substance to remain, maintenance of substance is so important.

even as I am fully known

feeling and sensing some tolstoyan qualities with this
a little too dualistic though maybe
i appreciate even
faith, hope and love
i have found prayer to be beneficial
reiki too
reading the upanishads also
older than christianity
much older
i appreciate

wine refrain

honesty of expression
in such a closed scene

warm glow of joy
your hair, eyes

I realised
an aura of serenity

makes the summer night
hold so much, so close

freedom timelines 2

The physical aspect of the timeline theory is very important and should not be underestimated, in fact in most cases it is essential to be healthy with energy flowing evenly and continuously through the body systems at all times. Blokkages result in frustrated and suppressed emotions and a victim mentality. Taking full responsibility for our experience sets us on the conscious-creator timelines of safety, joy and abundance versus the destructive timelines of percieved lack and deprivation.The body communicates with us constantly; how we are 'feeling' results in our choice of timeline because the vibration of our cells is vital for energetic building, creating, choosing consciously. A deep feeling of peace and contentment is held within the body, the body-temple, and then moves out into our surroundings creating a sanctuary.

freedom timelines

To be free, to live in present time, to live on the co-creation timelines and not on the chaos to armageddon timelines means to live by faith, avoiding the psychic attacks through reverance for life, means allowing self respect to guide us forward and remaining at all times in the temple; the body temple. Many times we jump backwards and forwards from one timeline to the other, trying out these different worlds. To know which timeline you are on: know true freedom!

Is porn harmful?

Pornography has taught me much about the nature of lust, sexuality and perversion, about human nature, the potential of man and the spiritual self and its relationship to the whole.

As for the experience of the astral, telepathy and the control-dynamics, well that would be self-explanatory to those that are conscious of these aspects and how they relate to porn, though how conscious is the man that consumes flesh in this way?
Conscious enough to know that it can be harmful and even destructive (the porn and the energy aroused by it)?
Are the harmful and destructive elements the most attractive maybe, beyond the image, movie or act of sex itself and how in-tune is a man with his inner nature (sexual-spiritual-animal) while using porn?

Pleasure and fulfillment through porn-consumption seems to depend on those participating, I say 'those' because there are beings/spirits/entities as well as humans involved ultimately in any act.

It would be wise at all times to think of the consequences, sex though, it being physical for the most part and instinctive largely, the energy being often volatile and spontaneous can be difficult to handle wisely, if handle/control at all. Complete suppression certainly is not recommended.

May we be aware of the abuse and misery that comes from exploitation and lust, the control dynamics that always involve dark and disruptive elements for all involved and try at least to balance if possible these things with our personal needs and desires.

To condemn porn would be foolish in my opinion, pornography in all of its multiplicity is just too illusive as to be properly understood, at least from any kind of moral standing. It serves a purpose, it exists not without reason, created and purported by man, all part of the show.

Like other aspects of life, the ugly truths sound forth with or without our personal consent or control, or do they, and are they ugly?

The consequences of denying truth may well be considered ugly, the consequences of denying our nature may also be considered ugly; uncomfortable.

Obviously we can choose to be sovereign in our thoughts and our actions to the best of our ability and intent. I have found that there may well be a place for porn in this world; as a teacher, however; once the class has been taken and the lessons learnt, it would be well to move on to the next grade and not get stuck.

This has been and is a lesson about service to others during a time of indulgent service to self.

melancho remix 2

26/09/2014

music in the night

dub reggae

slow down 

meet the memory 

cloud movies 

of the mind 

skin on skin 

perfume lingers 

the band plays on

the floating chords

melancho remix

26/09/2014

dark thunderheads approach

through the windows here

I am this body that aches  

creaks alone

day is passing white sand

through my fingers 

evening comes as a remedy 

soothing as a lotion 

cracked skin of my land

drink of the old solution 

the song of Solomon it carries
as a siren across the tide

drowning in the creek
face down in the stagnant water

I hide in the grasses 

weeping for my lost shepherd

in the darkness I am racked 

for my heart is over the moor 

with sadness on his brow 

like was his trade

you start and finish right here

Overindulgence in desires makes one greedy, the cup will never overflow that way, the aura will fray; become rough and coarse around the edges. 

Life becomes the hunting grounds where everything that is worth a dime is out of bounds, all that would replenish you becomes completely foreign with time. 

The heart hardens in the desolation of the hunt for the ever elusive; now all sentient beings are your prey. Unable to sustain your own energy, you must feed, you cannot receive. 

Really you are fine, branded as a slave, burning bridges behind you, empty as the store you plundered. You claim to be un-save-able yet never were you closer to redemption than now, closer to salvation than now. You start and finish right here.

suffering! truth! all part of the show!

To know, to really know, well there is suffering involved, there is absolutely no escape from the torment and it always reaches an unbearable, intolerable physical and emotional boiling point; the body starts falling apart, the mind can no longer remember the goodness of soul. There comes a kind of breaking point (the tower) and one is humbled in ones pride, in ones belief in illusions. Desire.

To know truth, one must pass through the eye of the needle, in that one must be completely honest and completely surrendered to this life-force that is a huge mystery. One must give up all pretenses, all idea's of one's own power, then may arise virtue.

How the apparel confuses, how the smiles deceive, how the lost seem to be found, how the wretched feign happiness and they believe it, so unaware are they of their own unrest, that falseness repeats itself. In deceit they may cower and hide, seemingly to rise, yet they are fallen so far now.

Yet have I to meet a man that has soul rebel qualities, yet have I to meet a man that is disgusted with this programmed human nature as I am, or a man that even knows anything human as programmed or humanity as nature, or even of this subject, this experience, that it exists, that the mind can think about this. Yet have I to meet a man that is fully aware of his complicity in this decaying form, that does not revel in this sickness, that does not wallow in his ignorance, that will not be part of this entropy.

Those that seek balance are filled with chaos; the mind or society they seek to balance is one that cannot be restored, the life they seek to balance is rooted in ego chaos. They will have to change completely, holistically. It can be likened to a pretty flower, plucked in joy; then withering in the hand.

Those that know good and that know evil, those that can differentiate properly, that still may hear; they suffer, maybe the most. The suffering is not so much a question of bruised ego, or the unfulfilled desire, or poverty or even pain, the suffering comes forth from knowing, awareness, consciousness. You cannot hide for very long, the truth of who you really are, the soul of a man, it moves, it says; seek truth or suffer, know truth or suffer. The suffering of most people is tied in with ego; not getting what they want, feel they deserve, what they desire. This I would call superficial suffering for true suffering has no physical qualities, it comes from the soul, it is existential in nature, it has more to do with 'not being' and less to do with 'not getting'.

The cruelty to self is the denial of truth, the denial of truth leads to deceit, lies, cheating, unfairness, evil. Yet they that deny truth, know it not. Of all things in this life; it is truth and living in truth, and knowing oneself in truth that brings the greatest relief, the finest reward, the peace that need not be understood, the true 'being'. Life is a dance with truth; a game of hide and seek.

Alas, there is no trust in the life-force, the mystery, they mistrust goodness, evil may be more predictable for them, the darkness may be safe or they just don't know the difference nor care for it if they did. They question not, only allow, give consent to war, destruction.

All part of the show! Judge not! (All of the above).

language of isolation

I write this as the sun sets behind the house opposite from mine and the people I know sink further and further into matter. I feel I am stuck socially because I care not for such limits; the parameters of systems. I feel zero motivation to take part in the game, yet I am lonely.

Can there even be a meeting of two or more that leave the conditions and outdated routines behind, just to contemplate the vastness for a little while?

I would just want to be human together without 'the world' intruding and controlling.

Although it is not my job to be moral nor am I particularly so inclined, let alone to judge another, I seek to be soulful in thought and action, so to connect fully with my surroundings. Forgive my romantic nature, it is unrealistic maybe, impractical surely.

I would understand: that all is well in my world.

Who will join me here?

You must live up to my high standards. They are not harshly out of reach, only invisible to the naked eye, fluid, ethereal. I speak the language of the soul. Sounds foreign to the people I know, I find myself conversing in the coarser common tongue.

Please show me how to appreciate matter better, that I may communicate with them, so that I maybe can vibe with someone. This disconnected experience is crushing me. Not for lack of nice people, they are here. It is the lack of 'soul family'. I care not for these conceptions, structures, systems of control, not complicit in deception.

I go through life feeling like a complete alien here on earth whilst overactive in my internalized intuition and the imposed structures mean nothing to me with my externalized projection.

How they adhere to this tradition of persecution is beyond me, yet I have to change and adapt to this code.

What balance? Between living and dying the world is gained and the soul lost.

The world is the world. People will always be people.

This isn't so much about them as it is about you; the witness. It is your perception that you interpret and act upon, behave by, learn from, enjoy. There are those that are relearning the language, there will always be enough to get by on. You can speak your truth, in fact; you will never be able now to do otherwise.

From sadistic bloodsucking to greener pastures

We carry on eliminating the BS, one second at a time, try to raise our consciousness to silently radiate peace to the world, meditate on courage. Polarity integration is like breathing or eating for us or the heart beating for us. 

As far as we create our own reality abraham stuff, how can the future not be bright, shining, fulfilling for us?

Knowledge protects; we accumulate knowledge and it changes us, the knowing changes our vibe, therefore we create based on what we know, it protects us....spiritually but we must put the knowledge into action somehow, being a passive bipolar in a sick world doesn't help or does it? 

As you were saying life is a bit of a dichotomy at all times, full of paradox, like for example the: do we need to fully get rid of the psychopaths or do we need them? a bit of both right?

or we create our own reality but did children really want to be sacrificed, or raped or starved? uno the first six years are the forming years, we are talking about the years in which a child learns its creation programme or mind is formed.

or we must take action, steps, movement, flow, work but really we don't need to know HOW we are going to get what we want, we don't need to be preoccupied with HOW we are going to do anything, our positive, pleasant vibe is enough. 

Work is joy, actions are gifts. 

HOW to deprogramme the mind without suffering? Again, the HOW? Apparently we can learn all of our lessons in bliss and happiness, it doesn't have to be negative.

?

The understanding I think is in the 'knowledge protects' theory/lifestyle/survival and the 'ignorance endangers' themes too.

Ultimately some of us humans do seek balance on all levels and therefore wholeness, completeness, healing and know that it could be so, some of us feel that the convictions/programming/studies that claim that man is naturally violent and self-seeking and its a nature problem, not a nurture problem are BS, and that man has inherent goodness inside, locked away due to trauma from outside forces. I would almost believe however that there are many different dna/breeds/types/mutations/genetic manipulation and that there are some f***ed up strands all mixed in there, one big juicy mess of polar opposite forces all tangled up.

Anyways being a soul-rebel uno, I speak rather the shamanic language, I look at the soul of a man, I speak to the spirit of man and I pass judgement but with a comforting nod or wink, for truly all is not lost.

Do the masses, fellow human beings all get destroyed? Whose soul lives on? The organic portals or those lacking soul potential or STS polarized do they get stuck or split? Do the 'generally 'good' people with STO potential do they transition to greener pastures?

So every one answer in this life is like a thousand new questions and so in order that we stay tuned into this frequency to be able to experience this physical life we jolly well need our ego or we would just burn, just go insane. Seems some negativity is grounding us or something, like the ego can control us, the me, me, me mode comes forth from survival fight or flight due to impending trauma from living life with the elements, roving beasts, diseases, pain, hunger, war, NWO, PTB etc. Who wants us stuck here on earth and why? 

Yes, life on earth can be paradise, it truly is at times, often pretty ok actually but still, we are like cattle to them, we are their prey, they feed on our negative emotions. We (all) are stuck here on earth like a fly that landed on the planet for a quick taste/sense, then the spider came to suck us dry, and we could have buzzed off quickly to a new system but we got trapped, stuck in a web of lies, hypnotized by the beast, it wants us alive for sadistic bloodsucking, but really, really, we can escape, we have wings, we can fly the solarsystem.

So I realized that I have been stressed, so stressed about my situation, fight or flight that I was not able to see the redemptive light.

The body says STOP! ultimately, the body is the 'enough is enough' shut down system, the body is amazing, such a brilliant, beautiful and compassionate one. The body speaks a language too. It says: I love you, I will endure for you, I love you enough to die for you and I will kill you if you fuck around for too long and don't listen to what I'm telling you.

Don't mind my musings, hope they amuse you.

http://www.sott.net/article/295289-Epidemic-depression-as-a-wake-up-call-to-humanity

an event that departs from expectations

A long time ago, about 5 years, it seems like an age behind me, anyways, a wise healer told me; that I need not worry about doing so much for now and try to settle down with the just 'being'. There would be some discrepancy between me and 'other' people, especially my peers, that it would ease up later on (around age 31/32/33) - conflict or variation, as between facts, figures, or claims.

Now the struggle for me is often between being and doing; placing too much value on material results with very high expectations placed on myself and upon others versus; the calm, collected persona that is comfortable to be alive and living his truth with dignity and integrity, allowing all to live and let live.

So there has been quite some friction, mostly mentally though also emotionally regarding myself and others, being and doing. Between the old ways of restriction programming and mind-control and the new ways of conscious creation and free-flow.
Honestly, it has been hard, extremely difficult at times, to function and operate in society, with other people, with the systems and institutions that are in place and with the mindset and beliefs of 'other' people.

Yes! to practice compassion, yes! to a non-judgmental attitude, yes! to non-attachment.
More and more people are waking up!
Yes, there is frustration, depression and anger involved.

So when confronted with the world and the 'other', I feel I should be doing more, activity, raising awareness, getting upset, working hard, earning money, resisting...do something.

I am doing something in my way but the doing is through being: embodiment.
Polarity-integration is always first energetic and is therefore physical 'work', great mental energy is often required, I am being me, I am in a process of great refinement, a transition, integration of opposing forces. There are very few who understand the dynamic of this work.

So at this time, these years of my life, being me and discovering/anchoring my truth (mystery school) is more important than achieving great material/financial/emotional success in the worldly sphere, like is expected of me, it may come, there may be much activity later on, for now though; to just hold the energetic space, to claim neutral ground, clear the path of control and deception etc is the way to go, that is about all I can do at this point. I must remember this (hanged man tarot) is temporary.

So what?  if the whole game is rigged, if most people will never wake up, if the world is going insane and slowly all life is being poisoned by the cult of selfishness and death, so what?

This conscious witness is calm, responds appropriately, no emotional reaction, understands the support, both eyes open to see the beauty in the breakdown.

glacial water

I was walking
to the valley
to the stony dwelling
to shut out
the sinking star

down to the river
to the water flowing

I pour my heart
to the starry sky
no thoughts
anymore

Emotions come
I am walking
down to the river
to the water flowing