I mentioned in another post that the ascending human, before enlightenment, will feel bored. Why? Because they are not here in the same capacity anymore. They are not motivated by the same things as other humans anymore. They may think they are because this transformational process can leave them exhausted, sick and broke financially. Which are often symptoms of ascension and not because they have done something wrong.
So they may think they are here to have better health or to mend a relationship or to become financially abundant. While these are important and can be achieved, they are truly not the main event in the final legs of becoming fully conscious. They have lived many lifetimes, had a myriad of experiences, traveled, taken on many disguises. It’s a kind of ‘been there, done that‘ feeling.
So we find ourselves a bit bored. We try to fill it up with keeping busy, pulling in a relationship, or creating some drama or crisis. But none of those work very well. We sense that there is something more, but we are not sure what it is. In our deepest hearts we know we are out of the matrix, the collective consciousness. We know we can never go back there again. We have let go of so much to get here. We are in a very different place now. Sure there are parts of us still trying to hang onto control, trying to micro manage our lives, but we are finding that it is exhausting. We still get overwhelmed with emotions and think we are doing something wrong. But we are learning to breathe into those feelings, not resist them. But not own them either. Big difference.
Resistance is what makes this whole process so much harder: resisting the feelings, judging them, judging ourselves. I have talked about letting go of trying to be perfect, of the concept that a spiritual person is not above being human, especially at this point. It is imperative to allow all the emotions breathing room, especially the so-called ‘bad’ ones; the anger, the sadness, the impatience. Honor all those feelings. And in doing that it brings more self-love. This process can be so much easier as we begin to stop the self judgment, especially around the anger and the intolerance.
So they may think they are here to have better health or to mend a relationship or to become financially abundant. While these are important and can be achieved, they are truly not the main event in the final legs of becoming fully conscious. They have lived many lifetimes, had a myriad of experiences, traveled, taken on many disguises. It’s a kind of ‘been there, done that‘ feeling.
So we find ourselves a bit bored. We try to fill it up with keeping busy, pulling in a relationship, or creating some drama or crisis. But none of those work very well. We sense that there is something more, but we are not sure what it is. In our deepest hearts we know we are out of the matrix, the collective consciousness. We know we can never go back there again. We have let go of so much to get here. We are in a very different place now. Sure there are parts of us still trying to hang onto control, trying to micro manage our lives, but we are finding that it is exhausting. We still get overwhelmed with emotions and think we are doing something wrong. But we are learning to breathe into those feelings, not resist them. But not own them either. Big difference.
Resistance is what makes this whole process so much harder: resisting the feelings, judging them, judging ourselves. I have talked about letting go of trying to be perfect, of the concept that a spiritual person is not above being human, especially at this point. It is imperative to allow all the emotions breathing room, especially the so-called ‘bad’ ones; the anger, the sadness, the impatience. Honor all those feelings. And in doing that it brings more self-love. This process can be so much easier as we begin to stop the self judgment, especially around the anger and the intolerance.