quite remarkable how integrated

18-7-2011

wherever you go people will be enamoured by your charm, this will not diminish due to you living a more solitary life or a life that is more detached from the general hive vibe.

very content just by the whole thing

Seeing the divine in every experience.
Understanding of a wide variety of life.
Knowing truth, the spiritual laws, respect.
Discovering and integrating of soul or omnipresence.
Patience and trust on the spiritual path.
Realizing how good you are.
Quite delightful, i'm sure.
Feeling the depth of this existance.
Christ consciousness, love thy neighbour.
Expression of self without judgment.
Mastery of energy managment.
Alignment of chakra systems.
Bringing flow of higher light to earth.
Through my healthy radiant body.
Sharing with, allowing others to rest.
Collecting beautiful things.
Teaching balanced message for creation.
Peaceful gathering for relaxation and quiet bliss.
Thankful and blessed with plant and animal life.
Harvest thy abundant earth, we love.
Very content just by the whole thing.
Life.

december energy

this month you can expect a number of things.

To begin with we will discuss the sensations you will begin to have, mostly energy feelings in and around your chakra's, mostly your crown, you know these but they will be stronger and more distinct.
Then there is the changing of relationships and trust.
But also the continuing of your current flow with calm and bliss filled moments of lasting joy.

So the sensations will be energy codes that contain information, this knowledge goes down to the level of cells, light codes that activate a memory in you of many generations and of the future too, the body will change and evolve using these blasts and waves of light coming in from the sun and central sun. Also contained in these codes is psychic information access to your soul, actually it is more like a reintegration, this will allow you to be stronger and more in-tune with everything around you, quite the lightworker if you do not get destracted by that glamour. You will certainly see more of who you are in a beautiful way.

Then this month will see the disintegration of some relationships, the falling apart or break-up, temporary or otherwise of relationships all around you, this is all ok. Not only love-relationships, also friends, family, any kind of relationship. Do not be concerned only honest and accepting, not judgmental because that is detrimental.

There will be more alignment, even closer, with the soul choices of individuals that have common values and goals, and expansion of consciousness, so things should really pick up even more speed regarding karmic outcomes, do not think too much of it because it is already fairly normal in your world.

With christmas approaching there will be much capacity this month for forgiveness, empathy and compassion regarding those around you who have been in turmoil or confusion regarding the recent shifts personal and global. Also learning of trust in another.

When families come together they will be able to appreciate each other much more now because the veil is thinning and the discomfort caused by current systems is apparent. This will allow for recognition of that positive vibration, human love and heart space, everyone has the chance to connect with and recognize this inside of them this month and how they relate to others.
The chance will be there.

For you lightworker, you can be sure that connecting to your inner child and exploration of your gifts will be rewarding. A reintegration of soul, healing, and connecting more with your guides too. You will be learning more about your purpose and those gifts that you have.
Enjoy the temporary chill spaces and the winter outward death, shiva, but inner rest.

cover one eye?

different people tell me that it's fine
as long as it feels good

society tells me otherwise

marilyn monroe
a scary version
a sneaky di-version

cover one eye

choice is made by me
so any fame or fortune
offered

i

create more abundance

You can learn to refine your thoughts and actions to fit what you imagine is most fitting and right for you.

not expected to live up to mine

First you have to have expectations but projecting all kinds of desire onto strangers is asking for strange reactions. What did you expect? No one has to live up to your expectations ever, or as long as you demand it.

Nothing is expected from you and yet so much.

So after you visualized all kinds of scenario's and when then the right candidate seemingly came along; it is not right to just jump them, they are not your prey.
Realising that when treated with respect some of the people will allow you to see them and you can hold your peace with what their actions imply.

They will try to communicate to you, that you are no longer residing full-time with them.

Rushing in with desperation and I, they just look at me with empty eyes, that don't really see. I feel frustration, impatience, not much tolerence at all. Not worth it.
But when you see where you are, fine really, still not that into it, still rather bored, waiting, I am waiting, there is no haste, there is no waste. Not much longer now and then the sky will clear and it will just be you and me.

nice and quiet

This post should be a reminder of what I know and of what I should remember forever now: smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol is detrimental to the inner calm.

Since stopping once again; I feel that slow detachment; it seems to have gotten nice and quiet in my body, so much less confusion and more flow, less constriction.

A healthy diet is also helping, avocado and tea, helping to feel the inner physical calm.

Now when confronted with ignorance or the unknown, when feeling automatic comparisons arising; I quickly detach or at least I am conscious of that conditioning now and therefore render the duality powerless.

I am more aware of who I am and so less threatened by that stupid norm of competition and insecurity.
That drama always needing my attention, always claiming that I need to resort to addictions to numb out the pain of being so called different, when being unique is exactly the whole point of it all and the hidden strength at this time, !

allow x

I put alot of my cranky behaivour down to boredom and it's ironic because I was never one to get bored. Turning up the drama, just to shake things a little. It hasn't much to do with activity or any kind of recreation, it has to do with systems, constructs, man-made structures of thought and speech.
My personality may be complex but what about x?
There are always people ready to set me off balance and I still let them sometimes. I'll allow anyone to do anything because it don't bother me, I hope for this to be.

Much goodness to know

Do not be afraid, dear one, you shall realise all that you truly desire.
We can see that your deepest desires are of the highest alignment and so they will come to be.

You can be sure that you will receive everything you need in due time, that means; when you are ready to enjoy it and receive it best.

Choice is a rather debatable given to you at this time because you believe in the law of attraction that is coming at you now from all outlets and this makes it difficult for you when you don't receive that what you believe you should have attracted.

There is another thing that seems rather questionable to you also, that of your soul- purpose here on earth and how that coincides with your current evolution or transition. For example you can have trust in helping others by residing in their frequency but feel like that is constricting to you.

So you wonder if you have any real choice in any matter as you are drawn to, and conscious of; multiple realities and frequencies at this time.

Well we say this: 
there is much you are still not conscious of, and you cannot always see the bigger picture when you get caught up in so called negative emotions, there are illusions present in your reality, not just in your mind or experience but in the outer world too.

We see that illusions are being seen for what they are now and that you are having to accomodate and re-evaluate. This is all part of the human experience for you and residing in any frequency should be valuable for your growth, seen from a broader learning experience perspective.

All is in divine and perfect order, we always repeat this because we know these words have a grounding, calming dimension to them.

There is also the experience of time which you are learning about.

There is no haste, there is no waste.

Trust and find that inner space again, where there is calm and a peaceful knowing. That is most important as you live your life and in your living is your soul purpose, in the struggle is the helping others, you are always helping yourself aswell as others just living your life.

There should be some transcendance now at all times, there is a filtering through of your soul and the most beautiful light at all times now in all of your experiences, there is illumination even though you pretend not to see it or are just not aware of it as yet.

You are becoming ever more aware, believe it or not, all humans are, so this is the expansion of consciousness and you are playing an important part in raising vibrations everywhere you go.

The intensity you sometimes feel inside or feel you are lacking outside is the gift, propelling you forward as you wish.

Be happy to know youself, for there is much goodness to know.

psychic

Patience with sexual expression, no haste with being on the recieving end of love. No worries about self-actualization knowing that there is no such thing as wasted time.
The outward results (inner results too) are no definitive precursor of what will be, merely a signpost at a crossroads.
Waiting quietly for more goodness to unfold, yes there is a wave coming, yes this is the valley, yes this is the silence before the storm. No, there is nothing to fear.
Psychic attacks are less morbid, they go by faster and lack any real threat to long-term peace of mind. A little suicide obsession that tries to take back lost ground. Be calm, be still, but be alert.
relaxation-valley

(n)ever finished

a life that is more detached from the general hive vibe

while writing creatively i am always channeling to some degree

I am still rather at a loss as to what to make of this compulsive, destructive behaviour, i am also aware of experience being important and desire being rife with illusion.

I feel somewhat slutty and dirty now after some encounters.

I feel i am abusing my body, mind and sanctity by this behaviour. I am ashamed partially but also rather intrigued. Feel for drama.

I pray that my body can be clean of all of this lust-filled nature but experience teaches us that it is a nature; an energy. I pray to be more balanced and respectful,

I also am trying to not be judgmental, so i was horny, well it is quite an experience to have no boundaries for awhile.

Now no more obsessions or fixations, healing of abuse, shedding of darker matter and health, healthy body.

It's all a matter of perception and where to draw the line, well i know now and thanks for the pleasure!

Mostly it seems futile but feels right, saying a prayer, asking for guidance or trying to numb myself out, the tides coming in, gotta move aside for the water.

ha those years in amsterdam, bittersweet as always i believe

more distinguishable way

The energy of your guides will become familiar to you
always making contact, you will begin to feel more with your body,
you will become even more sensitive to- and aware of  -
subtle changes in energy  (response)
as the process of enlightenment or transition unfolds

from a distance

It's more like an expression now
what i feel for you

I just want to drink and smoke
it's like a high

every day in the morning again for you

ever higher
I go

to give thanks for you

some random considerations

So apparently the patriarchy is starting to crumble, this is leaving alot of men unsure of where they stand, many are experiencing identity issues, some are desperately clinging on to the old paradigm where men had most of the power, now both men and women will have to reconsider their positions. Some structures are crumbling, those that are not working for the greater good will self-destruct. The nature of duality is finally reaching maximum transparency, lots of dark stuff is out in the open now and more will follow. It can at times be quite overwhelming and confusing when the pressure of change is on.
All this is happening because of an increase in light, there are light frequencies that are lifting the earth and all of it's inhabitants into a higher state of being and quite naturally there must be a falling away of that denser, heavier matter.

october prober

the weed plants are growing
things are moving back into acceptance
instead of complete denial and once again we are
on our way
moving out
there is still a ton of denial because things can look
pretty ugly
sure
compassion now too
quiet in the background
still
some kind of understanding is here
less judgement involved because we can expect it
we can expect outbursts
rage
time to be resiliant while trying to chill
get some rest now because it's going to be a rocky road
humans
time to pay up
no one should feel like an alien anymore
suicide is only one of the many
rides
just carry on because soon this little blink will be over
and please
try to stay sober

gifts and strengths are with us always

I like to see everything as a slowly shifting earth, always moving and changing, slowly re-arranging, everything in it's own perfection whether i percieve it as being good or bad.
There is no haste, there is no waste.

wednesday 13 april

I have started to catch glimpses of the no-time, the way we are existing from day to day regardless of years or numbers or birthdays that may pass.

Also I am becoming more aware of my sensitivity, quite remarkable how integrated.

From deep in the earth comes that consistency of nurturing, something that is ancient and ongoing.