26/07/2008

Take This Life

Without a doubt I am now sailing out to sea, in the mirror I see my eyes glinting mysteriously and I breathe. In the deep; I am accepting of all my dark sides. Would you swim alongside me and surface or hide?
You are on the inside of my mind, I am constantly wondering, contemplating if you are as far as I imagine, as close to me as I would like. You are so quiet in your affections, but your energy is alike to Buddha, so strong in compassion, so wise in walking.
While I sit beside you I am content, maybe only due to that Buddha-like quality: I pray instead of pretend. Love can become a spontaneous meditation, a suspended relaxation.
I am happy to love you even if I am just a field you wander through, I may be a means of experience for you like an experiment and I am content with that. I will love even without you understanding.
I am non-demanding in this state, thankful in prayer each hour, breathing, leaving the outcome to the angels, leaving the decision to you. Passive maybe, patient yes, ready to surrender, willing to bless, I will treasure these moments for many days, maybe forever.
How did this happen between us, what is this mystery? A magic string has been unraveled, a memory of a thousand lives with you. Wherever I go I feel sparks inside, warmth, I am alive, before I was just dreaming, dying, surviving. I pretend to capture the feeling in words and I am failing.
Accepting of all my dark sides, I am sailing on this ocean of pride. Would you swim alongside me and surface or hide? Take this life, ecstatic life, take your time, you are mine.
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  1. Anonymous5:23 am

    "We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
    -Chuck Klosterman

    I felt like that fit, even if its not nearly as poetic. I wish I could say something original after such a strong and beautiful post, but I am truly speechless. Your words ring so hard inside of me and it feels so comforting to know that other people can feel this way.

    I am enjoying this new friendship via blogging. I didn't think anybody read haha

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  2. brow of calm8:07 pm

    We do read and we do def. enjoy quotes like this one from Chuck. It's important to remember that love is multifaceted!...

    "But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like."

    wow. I'll think this over for quite some time, i'm sure.

    Thanks for your comment and compliments. They mean alot!

    I'm adding you as a blog link so I can drop by during my regular blog rounds.

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